The life within the life

I know I was meant to be doing a Christmas blog as my 'next' blog but that will probably be the next one I do now....it's been a busy couple of days but I will get round to it soon.

Well one week into the new year and so far so good I guess except for the fact I have no money whatsoever and could do with some for all sorts of reason. There is 4 birthday's this month that I need to buy presents for, also I need to pay for driving lessons, I owe Lyndsey money for the last set of nails she did for me on Tuesday, I want a iPod Nana (?), some DVDs, I need to book a driving test oh and I'm trying to book a venue for my dads 70th but I don't have the cash to do that. As you can see there are lots of things that I need money for right now and those are just some of the things.

I didn't have a lesson on Tuesday (6th) like I was meant to do. Well I got up early, got ready and about 20 mins before the lesson my driving instructor rings me up and tells me that he can't make it because his car was in the garage and he was meant to be getting it back and he'd just found out he wasn't going to be getting it back in time for the lesson so I didn't end up getting one in the end which was good news for my dad because he needed the money I had for my lesson for some food. Maybe not good news for me because I was really looking forward to it. So now it's next Tuesday at a much earlier time...I really like 12pm lessons but it's much earlier than that. I know it will do me good to get up even earlier because I will get much more things done.

This week is the start of a new healthier me. No more fatty foods, no more overeating or eating the wrong foods. So far it's going really well although I've left myself too hungry at times by missing various meals like lunch or breakfast but I'm going to get into the habit of not missing any because now I am eating smaller portions I am more hungry than normal so skipping meals is not the best idea.
For breakfast I've been having a small bowl of bite size shredded wheat followed by a mid morning snack of a piece of fruit, I did have poached egg on toast yesterday which was nice, lunch I have been having tomato soup...I am meant to have that with ryvita but I've not been having that although I should because soup isn't the most filling thing. Then in the afternoon I'm having fruit again followed by dinner which has been chicken and veg or fish, rice and potatoes so far this week. I must say I love chicken so that will be a massive feature in what I'm eating over the next few months.
To drink I've mainly been on bottled water this week especially yesterday and today as I don't feel 100% well. I did have a bottle of diet coke on Monday but before then I'd not had one in about 5 or 6 days. I was going to try and cut down on that but it looks like I'm managing to do that without trying. I don't want to take it out of my diet altogether but maybe go from 7 bottles a week to 3-5 per week.
Exercise wise I have decided not to push myself too hard because in the past I've done that and after two weeks I've all but given up from tiredness or from injury so now I am going to take it easier starting with daily walks for the first month. I have to walk at least a minimum of 20 mins a day for 4 weeks although I do plan on doing more the target of 20 mins is for those days when I'm either tired or don't feel too well. I haven't walked since Tuesday because when I got up yesterday I ached so much from the day before even though I didn't do much it just goes to show how unfit I am and how wise I am being with not pushing myself too hard as far as the exercise goes to start off with. So yesterday I ached like mad and I thought I'd go for a 20 min walk later in the day but as the day went on I became ill and I'm still not feeling great so I never go out plus I worked a full 8 hours too. Today, again, I've not gotten out for my daily walk because I don't feel too good but I am going to see how I feel tomorrow...I hope I feel up to getting out even if it's just for 20 minutes...I will have to wait to see what tomorrow brings.

So everything is going good so far except the illness wasn't planned I am proud at the fact that I'm still on the diet and I'm more active than normal and I'm getting more done and I'm getting to bed before 1am which is great as I'm getting up earlier which again is good because of the amount of things I am now getting done. It's hopefully the start of a better life, of a better, happier and fitter person. I know there will be struggles at some point when I will become less motivated but I will cross that bridge when I get to it. I just know that it's now or never with regards to changing my life around and I'm making small baby steps so I don't fall backwards and give up as it's the make or break time in my life...I can either carry on the way I am or I can improve and get so much better.