OK so I was meant to do a Christmas blog and as of yet I've not got round to it but I am sure I will do, or I hope I will find time to get it sorted and out of the way.
Not too much going on here for me other than work, it's tax return month so there is lots of account work and tax returns to get in before the 31st so I've been a lot busier than normal and it's good to have things to do.
So my days have been mainly filled with that and just trying to keep myself busy or more active than I've been before because it's about time that I spent more time doing things instead of sitting around wasting my life away which is basically what I was doing. So it's hard to get out of a bad habit of a lifetime but the last week or so I am pleased to say that I have been a lot more active and motivated than normal but of course there are days and times when I sit and waste time. I don't want to push myself so I'm doing things all the time but there are times when I can be doing things and not wasting my time sat at the computer or in front of the TV.
I am in the middle of trying to organize a surprise 70th birthday party for my dad and I'm getting no help from my brothers but that doesn't surprise me one little bit so it's just being left to me to sort and pay for. They wouldn't of even thought of doing one, it's the way they are but at least one of us turned out to be very thoughtful and giving.
It is ages away but it isn't really, it's about 10 weeks time and that time will fly by so I am booking somewhere in the next week and then everything else is much easier like sorting out the entertainment and food etc...just need to get the money together now and I'm working on that.
So work and party planning is what is going on in my life at the moment. Pretty doll but it's keeping me busy. I am also trying to get fitter and get out more but this cold weather is spoiling that for me at the moment and with it being so cold I'm not wanting to go out for walks but I'm hoping for the weather to get better in the next 3-4 weeks and then as long as it's not raining I should be walking daily which of course is what I want....it will help me build up my fitness levels and maybe help me to lose a little weight too.
So that's basically all really, for now anyway.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Thursday, January 08, 2009
The life within the life
I know I was meant to be doing a Christmas blog as my 'next' blog but that will probably be the next one I do now....it's been a busy couple of days but I will get round to it soon.
Well one week into the new year and so far so good I guess except for the fact I have no money whatsoever and could do with some for all sorts of reason. There is 4 birthday's this month that I need to buy presents for, also I need to pay for driving lessons, I owe Lyndsey money for the last set of nails she did for me on Tuesday, I want a iPod Nana (?), some DVDs, I need to book a driving test oh and I'm trying to book a venue for my dads 70th but I don't have the cash to do that. As you can see there are lots of things that I need money for right now and those are just some of the things.
I didn't have a lesson on Tuesday (6th) like I was meant to do. Well I got up early, got ready and about 20 mins before the lesson my driving instructor rings me up and tells me that he can't make it because his car was in the garage and he was meant to be getting it back and he'd just found out he wasn't going to be getting it back in time for the lesson so I didn't end up getting one in the end which was good news for my dad because he needed the money I had for my lesson for some food. Maybe not good news for me because I was really looking forward to it. So now it's next Tuesday at a much earlier time...I really like 12pm lessons but it's much earlier than that. I know it will do me good to get up even earlier because I will get much more things done.
This week is the start of a new healthier me. No more fatty foods, no more overeating or eating the wrong foods. So far it's going really well although I've left myself too hungry at times by missing various meals like lunch or breakfast but I'm going to get into the habit of not missing any because now I am eating smaller portions I am more hungry than normal so skipping meals is not the best idea.
For breakfast I've been having a small bowl of bite size shredded wheat followed by a mid morning snack of a piece of fruit, I did have poached egg on toast yesterday which was nice, lunch I have been having tomato soup...I am meant to have that with ryvita but I've not been having that although I should because soup isn't the most filling thing. Then in the afternoon I'm having fruit again followed by dinner which has been chicken and veg or fish, rice and potatoes so far this week. I must say I love chicken so that will be a massive feature in what I'm eating over the next few months.
To drink I've mainly been on bottled water this week especially yesterday and today as I don't feel 100% well. I did have a bottle of diet coke on Monday but before then I'd not had one in about 5 or 6 days. I was going to try and cut down on that but it looks like I'm managing to do that without trying. I don't want to take it out of my diet altogether but maybe go from 7 bottles a week to 3-5 per week.
Exercise wise I have decided not to push myself too hard because in the past I've done that and after two weeks I've all but given up from tiredness or from injury so now I am going to take it easier starting with daily walks for the first month. I have to walk at least a minimum of 20 mins a day for 4 weeks although I do plan on doing more the target of 20 mins is for those days when I'm either tired or don't feel too well. I haven't walked since Tuesday because when I got up yesterday I ached so much from the day before even though I didn't do much it just goes to show how unfit I am and how wise I am being with not pushing myself too hard as far as the exercise goes to start off with. So yesterday I ached like mad and I thought I'd go for a 20 min walk later in the day but as the day went on I became ill and I'm still not feeling great so I never go out plus I worked a full 8 hours too. Today, again, I've not gotten out for my daily walk because I don't feel too good but I am going to see how I feel tomorrow...I hope I feel up to getting out even if it's just for 20 minutes...I will have to wait to see what tomorrow brings.
So everything is going good so far except the illness wasn't planned I am proud at the fact that I'm still on the diet and I'm more active than normal and I'm getting more done and I'm getting to bed before 1am which is great as I'm getting up earlier which again is good because of the amount of things I am now getting done. It's hopefully the start of a better life, of a better, happier and fitter person. I know there will be struggles at some point when I will become less motivated but I will cross that bridge when I get to it. I just know that it's now or never with regards to changing my life around and I'm making small baby steps so I don't fall backwards and give up as it's the make or break time in my life...I can either carry on the way I am or I can improve and get so much better.
Well one week into the new year and so far so good I guess except for the fact I have no money whatsoever and could do with some for all sorts of reason. There is 4 birthday's this month that I need to buy presents for, also I need to pay for driving lessons, I owe Lyndsey money for the last set of nails she did for me on Tuesday, I want a iPod Nana (?), some DVDs, I need to book a driving test oh and I'm trying to book a venue for my dads 70th but I don't have the cash to do that. As you can see there are lots of things that I need money for right now and those are just some of the things.
I didn't have a lesson on Tuesday (6th) like I was meant to do. Well I got up early, got ready and about 20 mins before the lesson my driving instructor rings me up and tells me that he can't make it because his car was in the garage and he was meant to be getting it back and he'd just found out he wasn't going to be getting it back in time for the lesson so I didn't end up getting one in the end which was good news for my dad because he needed the money I had for my lesson for some food. Maybe not good news for me because I was really looking forward to it. So now it's next Tuesday at a much earlier time...I really like 12pm lessons but it's much earlier than that. I know it will do me good to get up even earlier because I will get much more things done.
This week is the start of a new healthier me. No more fatty foods, no more overeating or eating the wrong foods. So far it's going really well although I've left myself too hungry at times by missing various meals like lunch or breakfast but I'm going to get into the habit of not missing any because now I am eating smaller portions I am more hungry than normal so skipping meals is not the best idea.
For breakfast I've been having a small bowl of bite size shredded wheat followed by a mid morning snack of a piece of fruit, I did have poached egg on toast yesterday which was nice, lunch I have been having tomato soup...I am meant to have that with ryvita but I've not been having that although I should because soup isn't the most filling thing. Then in the afternoon I'm having fruit again followed by dinner which has been chicken and veg or fish, rice and potatoes so far this week. I must say I love chicken so that will be a massive feature in what I'm eating over the next few months.
To drink I've mainly been on bottled water this week especially yesterday and today as I don't feel 100% well. I did have a bottle of diet coke on Monday but before then I'd not had one in about 5 or 6 days. I was going to try and cut down on that but it looks like I'm managing to do that without trying. I don't want to take it out of my diet altogether but maybe go from 7 bottles a week to 3-5 per week.
Exercise wise I have decided not to push myself too hard because in the past I've done that and after two weeks I've all but given up from tiredness or from injury so now I am going to take it easier starting with daily walks for the first month. I have to walk at least a minimum of 20 mins a day for 4 weeks although I do plan on doing more the target of 20 mins is for those days when I'm either tired or don't feel too well. I haven't walked since Tuesday because when I got up yesterday I ached so much from the day before even though I didn't do much it just goes to show how unfit I am and how wise I am being with not pushing myself too hard as far as the exercise goes to start off with. So yesterday I ached like mad and I thought I'd go for a 20 min walk later in the day but as the day went on I became ill and I'm still not feeling great so I never go out plus I worked a full 8 hours too. Today, again, I've not gotten out for my daily walk because I don't feel too good but I am going to see how I feel tomorrow...I hope I feel up to getting out even if it's just for 20 minutes...I will have to wait to see what tomorrow brings.
So everything is going good so far except the illness wasn't planned I am proud at the fact that I'm still on the diet and I'm more active than normal and I'm getting more done and I'm getting to bed before 1am which is great as I'm getting up earlier which again is good because of the amount of things I am now getting done. It's hopefully the start of a better life, of a better, happier and fitter person. I know there will be struggles at some point when I will become less motivated but I will cross that bridge when I get to it. I just know that it's now or never with regards to changing my life around and I'm making small baby steps so I don't fall backwards and give up as it's the make or break time in my life...I can either carry on the way I am or I can improve and get so much better.
Thursday, January 01, 2009
New Year
It's time for me to get on track with this blog writing malarky and try and get at least 52 blogs done this year, one for each week of the year, as I didn't seem to do that last year for some reason. I did keep forgetting to do blogs and then there was a two month period where I didn't have access to my blog because I'd gotten a new computer. That is all about to change with a new year, a new me, a new determination,
Time for a update of the last two months of 2008
Well I went away for my birthday for 4 days and I really enjoyed it. It was such a nice change to be away from the same four walls, away from the same old routines and the same old town. I enjoyed it so much that it was almost a shame to be back home. It was great to be able to do what I want when I wanted and it was nice not having to clear up after my dad all the time or have to put up with his grumpy moods or him peeing on the bathroom floor.
It showed that I can manage away from home, I can live away from home with ease and I proved it on those four days away. In fact I didn't once miss being away from home, the only things I missed were the internet and having more than 5 channels to watch on the TV....not that we had 5 channels to watch because I think we only found 2 or 3 in the end and every time we wanted to change the channel we had to retune the TV so it wasn't the best TV in the world.
Oh, yeah, I went away with Lyndsey and we went to Fleetwood which isn't too far away from here but it might as well be with just how different it was. There wasn't much in Fleetwood itself but it was a town like any town but so much cleaner, there weren't many places to go but I guess with Blackpool down the road there is always things to do there. We did go to Blackpool on the Saturday, which was my birthday, and we went with the intention to spend some money on clothes. We were going to Primark and I couldn't wait because I'd never been to Primark and I'd always wanted to go. It was PACKED in there, with people grabbing at clothes left right and centre. There was so much stuff in there, it was bliss but a lot of things weren't in my size, they'd sold out, but I did end up buying around 10 items in total and I was shocked at how cheap everything was. The best things I bought were: a star necklace, a pair of full length black leggings and a pair of bed socks. I am deffo going back there but I want to have at least a good £50-100 when I go back because I could easily spend that and come away with lots of things so I'm going to go again in a couple of months time...I don't know if I will be going to the Blackpool one or the Preston one but the Blackpool one is much bigger so it might be that one.
When we left Primark we ended up going into a shopping centre part of Blackpool because Lyndsey was on the look out for a new coat and well I wanted a good look around too because I wanted some more clothes because I'd not spent that much in Primark even though I came out with so much stuff.
I ended up finding a really nice black dress in Dotty P's (yeah a dress!!) and a lovely pair of skinny flare jeans in there too. My friend told me their jeans were "crotch-tastic" and she wasn't joking either. They were cheap at £15 a pair so i was looking around for a pair and about 95% of them had massive crotch areas but then in another part of the shop I found these "skinny flare jeans" and they had a low-ish wise waist and looked amazing and at only £15 they were a bargain so I got those.
We looked in some other shops but I didn't really get anything else that day but it was a good day because normally I probably buy 90% of my clothes online. A lot of the time they don't look as good online or look better so sometimes I end up with things that look totally different in person so it was nice to get out and have a good look around the shops, something I hope to do more of in future instead of doing all my shopping online.
We'd parked on this car park in the centre and were near the top...when we'd left we used the stairs and I got so dizzy walking down them because they were in a circle all the way down ... I got myself so dizzy and almost fell over. I knew I'd not enjoy going back up them because we were on the 7th floor and each floor had 4 sets of stairs to walk up so you can just imagine how dizzy it could make up but on top of that I am super unfit so walking up that many flights of stairs may just kill me. I was deffo trailing behind Lyndsey and I had to stop 2 times near the top because of how breathless it was making me and how hard it was on the back of my legs and when I got to the car Lyndsey admitted I wasn't the only one who struggled with those stairs and there is me thinking she is a lot fitter than me and she struggled but I knew my fitness is way too low and after those stairs something had to be done about me and my lack of fitness that's for sure.
I still haven't mentioned about our first night there....well when we got there I got out into a really muddy patch and didn't realise because of how dark it was so I ended up walking mud in and not realising until we'd gotten everything in out of the car. It was decided the best thing to do was leave it to dry and then brush it up before we leave so that's what I did but I had to clean my trainers.
The caravan was so much nicer than either of us expected, I must admit I did expect to find a tiny beaten up old caravan but was shocked to find a really big, clean 3 bedroomed caravan. It shocked us both.
I had the room with the double bed but I don't think Lyndsey minded because she picked the bedroom next to the bathroom and pushed the two beds together which made a double. There was a bedroom between us and we both used half of the room each (and a bed each) to store our things so it worked out really well.
Lyndsey cremated the pizza under the grill so I had a sandwich that night and we were soon onto making and drinking Mojitos. We didn't know if we were going to stay in or go out but I was more than happy to stay in but we decided to go up to the club house and check it out for a few hours. Of course there was some kind of dodgy band on and little kids running around the place but we had a few drinks before leaving and coming back to some more drinks. I couldn't wait to get into my PJs in all honesty and we settled down in front of the TV with our drinks and it was super cold in the caravan with no central heating so neither of us were looking forward to going to bed.
Well let me tell you, that night I am shocked I didn't freeze to death!! I aint joking either. It was just so cold, way too cold. I couldn't sleep because I was shivering violently. I had my PJs on, socks, a hoody (with the hood up), scarf and was wrapped in my duvet but still I was frozen. It was horrible. I didn't know what to do with myself and I just wanted to cry but I was scared the wetness would freeze my eyes shut. I would nod off every now and then to be woken up with violent shaking. I tried to keep my body still because the more I moved the more violent the shaking got but not only was my body shaking but my head was and my teeth were chattering.
I barely got any sleep that night and I woke up super cold that morning and I rushed out of bed into the living room to find the fire on full and the curtains open letting warm sunlight into the room. It took a good hour before the shaking stopped and then I was still really cold and not wanting to move from in front of the fire. There was no way I could take another night of being that cold so I decided when we went out shopping that day (my birthday) I would get another duvet and even a fleece blanket and some super thick socks and some gloves too. There was just no way I could go thru another night like that again.
Not long because we went out Lyndsey was in my bedroom and she found a switch on the wall and it was for the heating!! OMG!! We couldn't believe it when she found that. I'd seen it the night before but it didn't say what it was for so I'd left it. We didn't know if it made all the van warm but we were going to find out when we got back.
The Saturday night we took ages to get ready and we went to Michael's Tandoori House for a meal and it was so good and we ended up with a super massive garlic nann bread. It was the biggest one I'd ever seen in my life. We also found out that they'd forgotten to put the £14 bottle of Rose wine on the bill and well we weren't about to tell them but we did feel so guilty that we left a £1.50 tip each lol.
We ended up going back to the club that night for some drinks before heading back to the van and staying up till almost 5am drinking and Lyndsey doing some mad voice-over on the foreign film on the TV. She fell asleep on the sofa and I tottered off to my warm bedroom for the night....what bliss it was to be sleeping in such a warm room...it was so nice and there was me dreading it all day but we found the heating and were over the moon about it.
I was woken about 4 hours later by Lyndsey banging round in the kitchen...does this girl ever sleep? lol. There was me hoping to sleep in till lunch because of the time I'd gone to bed and there was her up and about. So I got up, I knew I could catch up on my sleep when I got home the next day.
That day we decided we were going to go and have lunch in a local place called Richardson's Fish Bar, we were eating there because Lyndsey's last name is Richardson.
So she showered first and went off to Asda to pick up some bits while I showered and got ready. She was ages, I was going to send out a search party because I thought she'd be back ages before I was ready cos it takes me 45-60 mins to get ready and the Asda was the next junction down 5 mins away but she was about 90 minutes in total so I had more than enough time to get ready.
When she got back we were soon off out again to the fish bar and had a really lovely meal there and were going to walk it off but it was freezing so we ended up going to Freeport Shopping Village instead. We looked in most shops and I picked up a couple of things in this old worlde shop and Lyndsey got a cream/white coat in the Next discount shop....the coat was really nice. We then ended up in this shop that sold bags and costume jewellery and I noticed they did ear piercing. Well I've wanted my second hole done again for years (had it done 2 times before) so I thought why not?!! So I went and asked the women if she was doing it and she said yes so I got them done. I went for the £17 earrings which were super nice and I didn't pass out and she was shocked I didn't even flinch either. But I didn't flinch because I could hear them about to pierce me a second before it did so I knew it was coming...otherwise I'd prob of jumped out the seat each time lol.
Back at the caravan Lyndsey said I had to go and sit in my room while she set something up...she said she had a surprise for me and I couldn't wait to find out what. It wasn't long before I found out and I almost cried because I am so not used to people doing nice things for me. She'd got me a lovely pink birthday cake and candles and birthday hats and fun blow on sound things...it was so nice and then she cooked fajitas which she is amazing at. I was really happy to say the least.
We went to the club that night as it was the last night there not only for us but the whole site as it was closing down the next day for winter. But there wasn't much on so we ended up playing pool and playing on the machines in there for a good few hours before coming back to the van, having a few drinks and going to bed.
We were meant to be out the van at 10am the next morning but it was another hour before we left. There was so much packing, so much to take with us that it only just fit in Lyndsey's car but we got it in and thats all that matters.
We came the seaside way home though all the seasides from Fleetwood to Blackpool to St Annes with a few in the middle. The nearer we got to Blackburn the darker the clouds got so we left the nice weather back in Fleetwood.
It was good to get back home, mainly because I was dying for the bathroom. But it was a shame to be home at all because I'd gotten so used to being away from home, having my own space, not being expected to do everything and being able to come and go as I pleased. I liked it so much.
It took me an eternity to unpack everything when I got hom but it was nice to be back in my own bed with my own things around me and a working TV with more channels than I can shake a stick at. I'd do it again in a heartbeat, it was good to be away from the norm and the company was good.
Day after I got back I had a driving lesson so I didn't have time to lie around in bed that morning because I had a date with the hippy and it was good to get a start back into the routine of my life that I had before I went away.
November was just a month of driving lessons because I had my test on the last Tuesday of the month so we had to get as many lessons in as we could. I think I had 1 the week I got back, 2 the week after, 3 the week after that (I'd asked for 3) and then the day before I had 2 hours with him and that was so tiring....I couldn't wait for it to end that's for sure but it hadn't helped that the nerves had kicked in a few days before and I was barely sleeping and barely eating. It was a nightmare. The night before my test I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat in the morning and I was just a mess in general. I had 90 mins with him before hand and well I didn't want any time with him because I was wishing I didn't have to do my test. Everything went great though in that 90 mins, I was getting everything 100% right and I felt now was the time to do the test.
The test flew by...it was 40 minutes long but it felt more like 2 minutes. I failed though!! I was passing right up until the last 2 mins of the test where I did two dangerous things and got failed on those. My instructor was part to blame for them but I won't go into details but I wasn't happy and then I barely said two words to him as he drove me home. I bet he thought I wasn't going to have any more lessons and I was considering it because my theory certificate was going to run out in ten days from then. He told me to go in the house and try and book a test before it ran out but there wasn't anything and I was forced to book another theory test and that was the last thing I wanted to do. ..... I then booked a lesson with him for the following week and decided to do only one a week. He said he was glad that I'd decided to carry on with my lessons as he suspected I wasn't going to but with him as my instructor I was going to carry on because I enjoy spending my time with him.
Not had a lesson for two weeks now with Christmas and New Year but I have one booked for next week (almost 3 weeks since my last one) and I've been driving my dads car since then so I know my driving will of gone down hill because driving my dads car is like driving a tank and I struggled with driving it and it's horrible driving with someone next to me other than Mick. I'd gotten so used to him being there that it just wasn't the same and well my dad kept shouting at me and his car kept stressing me out so I knew from how I was driving it is going to take me a few lessons to get back to the standard I was before Christmas.
Anyway I've been sat here way too long now so this is my update for now. There isn't much more I can write about anyway but I shall be back soon with the little bit of updating I have left as well as with what I got for Christmas.
Time for a update of the last two months of 2008
Well I went away for my birthday for 4 days and I really enjoyed it. It was such a nice change to be away from the same four walls, away from the same old routines and the same old town. I enjoyed it so much that it was almost a shame to be back home. It was great to be able to do what I want when I wanted and it was nice not having to clear up after my dad all the time or have to put up with his grumpy moods or him peeing on the bathroom floor.
It showed that I can manage away from home, I can live away from home with ease and I proved it on those four days away. In fact I didn't once miss being away from home, the only things I missed were the internet and having more than 5 channels to watch on the TV....not that we had 5 channels to watch because I think we only found 2 or 3 in the end and every time we wanted to change the channel we had to retune the TV so it wasn't the best TV in the world.
Oh, yeah, I went away with Lyndsey and we went to Fleetwood which isn't too far away from here but it might as well be with just how different it was. There wasn't much in Fleetwood itself but it was a town like any town but so much cleaner, there weren't many places to go but I guess with Blackpool down the road there is always things to do there. We did go to Blackpool on the Saturday, which was my birthday, and we went with the intention to spend some money on clothes. We were going to Primark and I couldn't wait because I'd never been to Primark and I'd always wanted to go. It was PACKED in there, with people grabbing at clothes left right and centre. There was so much stuff in there, it was bliss but a lot of things weren't in my size, they'd sold out, but I did end up buying around 10 items in total and I was shocked at how cheap everything was. The best things I bought were: a star necklace, a pair of full length black leggings and a pair of bed socks. I am deffo going back there but I want to have at least a good £50-100 when I go back because I could easily spend that and come away with lots of things so I'm going to go again in a couple of months time...I don't know if I will be going to the Blackpool one or the Preston one but the Blackpool one is much bigger so it might be that one.
When we left Primark we ended up going into a shopping centre part of Blackpool because Lyndsey was on the look out for a new coat and well I wanted a good look around too because I wanted some more clothes because I'd not spent that much in Primark even though I came out with so much stuff.
I ended up finding a really nice black dress in Dotty P's (yeah a dress!!) and a lovely pair of skinny flare jeans in there too. My friend told me their jeans were "crotch-tastic" and she wasn't joking either. They were cheap at £15 a pair so i was looking around for a pair and about 95% of them had massive crotch areas but then in another part of the shop I found these "skinny flare jeans" and they had a low-ish wise waist and looked amazing and at only £15 they were a bargain so I got those.
We looked in some other shops but I didn't really get anything else that day but it was a good day because normally I probably buy 90% of my clothes online. A lot of the time they don't look as good online or look better so sometimes I end up with things that look totally different in person so it was nice to get out and have a good look around the shops, something I hope to do more of in future instead of doing all my shopping online.
We'd parked on this car park in the centre and were near the top...when we'd left we used the stairs and I got so dizzy walking down them because they were in a circle all the way down ... I got myself so dizzy and almost fell over. I knew I'd not enjoy going back up them because we were on the 7th floor and each floor had 4 sets of stairs to walk up so you can just imagine how dizzy it could make up but on top of that I am super unfit so walking up that many flights of stairs may just kill me. I was deffo trailing behind Lyndsey and I had to stop 2 times near the top because of how breathless it was making me and how hard it was on the back of my legs and when I got to the car Lyndsey admitted I wasn't the only one who struggled with those stairs and there is me thinking she is a lot fitter than me and she struggled but I knew my fitness is way too low and after those stairs something had to be done about me and my lack of fitness that's for sure.
I still haven't mentioned about our first night there....well when we got there I got out into a really muddy patch and didn't realise because of how dark it was so I ended up walking mud in and not realising until we'd gotten everything in out of the car. It was decided the best thing to do was leave it to dry and then brush it up before we leave so that's what I did but I had to clean my trainers.
The caravan was so much nicer than either of us expected, I must admit I did expect to find a tiny beaten up old caravan but was shocked to find a really big, clean 3 bedroomed caravan. It shocked us both.
I had the room with the double bed but I don't think Lyndsey minded because she picked the bedroom next to the bathroom and pushed the two beds together which made a double. There was a bedroom between us and we both used half of the room each (and a bed each) to store our things so it worked out really well.
Lyndsey cremated the pizza under the grill so I had a sandwich that night and we were soon onto making and drinking Mojitos. We didn't know if we were going to stay in or go out but I was more than happy to stay in but we decided to go up to the club house and check it out for a few hours. Of course there was some kind of dodgy band on and little kids running around the place but we had a few drinks before leaving and coming back to some more drinks. I couldn't wait to get into my PJs in all honesty and we settled down in front of the TV with our drinks and it was super cold in the caravan with no central heating so neither of us were looking forward to going to bed.
Well let me tell you, that night I am shocked I didn't freeze to death!! I aint joking either. It was just so cold, way too cold. I couldn't sleep because I was shivering violently. I had my PJs on, socks, a hoody (with the hood up), scarf and was wrapped in my duvet but still I was frozen. It was horrible. I didn't know what to do with myself and I just wanted to cry but I was scared the wetness would freeze my eyes shut. I would nod off every now and then to be woken up with violent shaking. I tried to keep my body still because the more I moved the more violent the shaking got but not only was my body shaking but my head was and my teeth were chattering.
I barely got any sleep that night and I woke up super cold that morning and I rushed out of bed into the living room to find the fire on full and the curtains open letting warm sunlight into the room. It took a good hour before the shaking stopped and then I was still really cold and not wanting to move from in front of the fire. There was no way I could take another night of being that cold so I decided when we went out shopping that day (my birthday) I would get another duvet and even a fleece blanket and some super thick socks and some gloves too. There was just no way I could go thru another night like that again.
Not long because we went out Lyndsey was in my bedroom and she found a switch on the wall and it was for the heating!! OMG!! We couldn't believe it when she found that. I'd seen it the night before but it didn't say what it was for so I'd left it. We didn't know if it made all the van warm but we were going to find out when we got back.
The Saturday night we took ages to get ready and we went to Michael's Tandoori House for a meal and it was so good and we ended up with a super massive garlic nann bread. It was the biggest one I'd ever seen in my life. We also found out that they'd forgotten to put the £14 bottle of Rose wine on the bill and well we weren't about to tell them but we did feel so guilty that we left a £1.50 tip each lol.
We ended up going back to the club that night for some drinks before heading back to the van and staying up till almost 5am drinking and Lyndsey doing some mad voice-over on the foreign film on the TV. She fell asleep on the sofa and I tottered off to my warm bedroom for the night....what bliss it was to be sleeping in such a warm room...it was so nice and there was me dreading it all day but we found the heating and were over the moon about it.
I was woken about 4 hours later by Lyndsey banging round in the kitchen...does this girl ever sleep? lol. There was me hoping to sleep in till lunch because of the time I'd gone to bed and there was her up and about. So I got up, I knew I could catch up on my sleep when I got home the next day.
That day we decided we were going to go and have lunch in a local place called Richardson's Fish Bar, we were eating there because Lyndsey's last name is Richardson.
So she showered first and went off to Asda to pick up some bits while I showered and got ready. She was ages, I was going to send out a search party because I thought she'd be back ages before I was ready cos it takes me 45-60 mins to get ready and the Asda was the next junction down 5 mins away but she was about 90 minutes in total so I had more than enough time to get ready.
When she got back we were soon off out again to the fish bar and had a really lovely meal there and were going to walk it off but it was freezing so we ended up going to Freeport Shopping Village instead. We looked in most shops and I picked up a couple of things in this old worlde shop and Lyndsey got a cream/white coat in the Next discount shop....the coat was really nice. We then ended up in this shop that sold bags and costume jewellery and I noticed they did ear piercing. Well I've wanted my second hole done again for years (had it done 2 times before) so I thought why not?!! So I went and asked the women if she was doing it and she said yes so I got them done. I went for the £17 earrings which were super nice and I didn't pass out and she was shocked I didn't even flinch either. But I didn't flinch because I could hear them about to pierce me a second before it did so I knew it was coming...otherwise I'd prob of jumped out the seat each time lol.
Back at the caravan Lyndsey said I had to go and sit in my room while she set something up...she said she had a surprise for me and I couldn't wait to find out what. It wasn't long before I found out and I almost cried because I am so not used to people doing nice things for me. She'd got me a lovely pink birthday cake and candles and birthday hats and fun blow on sound things...it was so nice and then she cooked fajitas which she is amazing at. I was really happy to say the least.
We went to the club that night as it was the last night there not only for us but the whole site as it was closing down the next day for winter. But there wasn't much on so we ended up playing pool and playing on the machines in there for a good few hours before coming back to the van, having a few drinks and going to bed.
We were meant to be out the van at 10am the next morning but it was another hour before we left. There was so much packing, so much to take with us that it only just fit in Lyndsey's car but we got it in and thats all that matters.
We came the seaside way home though all the seasides from Fleetwood to Blackpool to St Annes with a few in the middle. The nearer we got to Blackburn the darker the clouds got so we left the nice weather back in Fleetwood.
It was good to get back home, mainly because I was dying for the bathroom. But it was a shame to be home at all because I'd gotten so used to being away from home, having my own space, not being expected to do everything and being able to come and go as I pleased. I liked it so much.
It took me an eternity to unpack everything when I got hom but it was nice to be back in my own bed with my own things around me and a working TV with more channels than I can shake a stick at. I'd do it again in a heartbeat, it was good to be away from the norm and the company was good.
Day after I got back I had a driving lesson so I didn't have time to lie around in bed that morning because I had a date with the hippy and it was good to get a start back into the routine of my life that I had before I went away.
November was just a month of driving lessons because I had my test on the last Tuesday of the month so we had to get as many lessons in as we could. I think I had 1 the week I got back, 2 the week after, 3 the week after that (I'd asked for 3) and then the day before I had 2 hours with him and that was so tiring....I couldn't wait for it to end that's for sure but it hadn't helped that the nerves had kicked in a few days before and I was barely sleeping and barely eating. It was a nightmare. The night before my test I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat in the morning and I was just a mess in general. I had 90 mins with him before hand and well I didn't want any time with him because I was wishing I didn't have to do my test. Everything went great though in that 90 mins, I was getting everything 100% right and I felt now was the time to do the test.
The test flew by...it was 40 minutes long but it felt more like 2 minutes. I failed though!! I was passing right up until the last 2 mins of the test where I did two dangerous things and got failed on those. My instructor was part to blame for them but I won't go into details but I wasn't happy and then I barely said two words to him as he drove me home. I bet he thought I wasn't going to have any more lessons and I was considering it because my theory certificate was going to run out in ten days from then. He told me to go in the house and try and book a test before it ran out but there wasn't anything and I was forced to book another theory test and that was the last thing I wanted to do. ..... I then booked a lesson with him for the following week and decided to do only one a week. He said he was glad that I'd decided to carry on with my lessons as he suspected I wasn't going to but with him as my instructor I was going to carry on because I enjoy spending my time with him.
Not had a lesson for two weeks now with Christmas and New Year but I have one booked for next week (almost 3 weeks since my last one) and I've been driving my dads car since then so I know my driving will of gone down hill because driving my dads car is like driving a tank and I struggled with driving it and it's horrible driving with someone next to me other than Mick. I'd gotten so used to him being there that it just wasn't the same and well my dad kept shouting at me and his car kept stressing me out so I knew from how I was driving it is going to take me a few lessons to get back to the standard I was before Christmas.
Anyway I've been sat here way too long now so this is my update for now. There isn't much more I can write about anyway but I shall be back soon with the little bit of updating I have left as well as with what I got for Christmas.
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