The Wreakoning

Well if you read my last blog that I posted you will see how stessed out I was/am with a lot of things in my life and how everything was suffering.

It is time for some change in my life and hopefully some for the best I guess.
As far as my course goes this is basically what has happened since then. I got a 10 day extension on my assignment and it basically isn't enough. I had to read 2 and a half books which doesn't sound a lot right? Well one of them is a A4 sized book with around 350 pages. Then there was another book which is slightly smaller than A4 size and that had 300 pages and another book which was A4 size with around 100 pages of reading. On top of that I had to read internet sources which come to another 100 pages and then I have some other reading that is on my computer which is a lot of pages too. On top that there is about 100 work exercises to do. Then I had to write notes and do a 2000 word assignment. Now does that sound a lot? Yeah it does and I did start doing it and I was doing around 4 hours a day study but couldn't manage more than that a day because I was finding it s struggle doing one subject for that amount of time. I can study for 5 hours a day if I am studying more than one subject a day but I was only doing one subject. On top of that I am ill so it made it almost impossible for me and I was tired all the time, I couldn't seem to get enough sleep. I managed to study for about 4 days and I woke up feeling really ill on Saturday and I was just like I can't carry on and it upset me because I do like my course but have neglected it and now I am at the stage that it is impossible for me to catch up. It means I can't finish my degree for a year longer, I was meant to finish next year but if I quit this course I won't graduate until 2009 and that thought upsets me.

Anyway I thought I would see how I felt at the end of the day and even though I didn't feel anywhere as bad but I am still ill and I realised that even if I worked for 12 hours a day until Midnight on Thursday (that is the cut off for submission) I probably wouldn't have it done. Even if I was full health there is no way I could spend 12 hours a day studying. I know someone who used to do that but they didn't start off doing that, they had to work up to being able to do that so even if I was full health right now I couldn't do it. Studying is tiring.
So I made a difficult dicision and that was to quit my course. This really is my last resource. I can't carry on, I have thought about it so much and even though I don't want to quit there is no way round it. Even if I got 14 days to do the assignment it wouldn't of been enough. I hate the fact that I have to put my finishing of my degree back for a year but I guess things happen for a reason.
At now it isn't bothering me but I will be upset at some poiont but that is life I guess.

Anyway good things are that I can start my two new courses that started in May. They are short courses, one on mammels and one on planets. They are good because there is two submission dates for the course work and one is this month and one is October. I will start them in the next week or so and have them finished for the October sumission date. As well as that my work (job) is my number one thing I need to concentrate on for the next weeks. I am so behind on work so I will be working more hours and catching up and earning money so I can buy more things for the house. Like this week I am off to Ikea to buy a sofa and another book shelt so the money will come in handy.

Another thing I can concentrate on, when I sort my health, is my running because the Amsterdam Half Marathon is in 13 weeks. I've been given a running plan for it and it starts in 2 weeks so I have 2 weeks to see the doctor and get out walking and on my bike before the running/walking starts for me. I am looking forward to it, I should of been running these past three months but illness and lazyness and too many late nights have stopped me but three times a week I will be out running and once a week (weather permitting) I will be out on my bike and also start walking Lucky daily at least once (again weather permitting).

On top of that my daily chores have been suffering so I can get back into a routine again and I also plan on cutting down on my late nights too so I can get up at 8am and go to bed between 8-12. 8pm is early but I can either read or watch a DVD or chat or write or something. Of course I will still have my late nights because I enjoy them but not as often.
I just have so much to catch up on and the stress I have been under is gone in a big way by quitting the course. SO it should be OK.

I have a visitor coming in 2 weeks and 4 days time and I can't wait to see them. Their name is Paul although I refer to him as Chunky which he doesn't mind. We met on here which was a accident in a way but we met each other and got to know each other and at this time of my life it is nice to have him in my life, he makes me smile and he looks sexy when he wear black t-shirts.
I think that is it for now. I have 3 blogs coming up in the next few weeks. I will finish my Bon Jovi concert one in the next day or so, I will then start to resize all the pictures ( will take a day or two to do that) and then I will post my Bon Jovi blog. Then I will start to write my London blog, that won't take too long to write because it was a month ago and I have forgot the details of everything we did but it should be a good blog. When I have wrote that I will edit and resize my London pictures which may take a week because there is 400-500 pictures and plus I'm busy. Once that is done I will write a blog about Nathan and Dianna being here and then resize those pictures which will take a hour as I did most of them, a Asda blog will follow which will take an hour and I have those pictures ready so that saves time. I will then do a blog from my stay in Scunthorpe, I have a lot of pictures to resize so that will take a couple of days. With some luck all these blogs will be posted in the next 2-4 weeks.