Well what a week it has been. Some crazy stuff has happened, some upsetting stuff and some fantastic stuff so I guess you could say this has been a very interesting week in general.
Well last Thursday evening for the first time I voiced chat with the lovely Dianna on MSN. I was so nervous at first because I thought that we wouldn't be able to understand one another, well I was more worried about her not being able to understand me than me understanding her. But I didn't really need to worry because we understood one another perfectly which was a massive weight off my mind.
We ended up staying up quite late laughing and joking and it was a great night. The next morning I didn't want to get up *lol* but I had to get up because I had to go and do the shopping and stuff with my dad before he went away for the weekend. So the next morning I dragged myself out of bed and it was my dad who was almost two hours late home so I could of slept in longer.
Friday wasn't a good day for me. We went out and had lunch in a really nice pub that's about ten minutes drive away from me. The lunch was nice but when we were in there his boss came in and said he had to drop things off at work even though my dad had the things with him and could of easily have give them to him there and then. We went over the his bosses house to drop the things off and I was sat in the car for ages waiting and was so bored. Madeline, his bosses wife, came out and chatted to me for a couple of minutes before my dad finally turned back up so we could go and do the shopping.
Anyway we set off back into Blackburn and were sat at the traffic lights at the top of a hill when the petrol decided to run out. I wasn't pleased and neither was my dad. The car wouldn't start and we couldn't reverse it back down the hill because the hill is on a bend and was getting very busy. My dad tried phoning Roy (his boss) but couldn't get any answer so rang Madeline and she said she would bring a can of petrol. Five minutes later she drops off the petrol and drives off. My dad put the petrol in the car and the car wouldn't start but he kept trying and tried so much he ran the battery out.
Neither of us was please at that point. It was getting later and later and we needed to get the shopping done so my dad could leave for the weekend.
Then he decided he was going to let the car roll backwards down the hill but he didn't steer it as well as he should and ended up going into a wall and couldn't move it then. The car wasn't damaged but we could no longer go backwards. We were then trying to get hold of anyone to come and give the car a jump start but no one was answering their phone. We eventually got hold of one of my brothers, Barry, and he was working and didn't really want to come out and help but he set off anyway. Then I got hold of my dad's boss who said he would come and help so we rang my brother back and said he didn't need to come.
When we were waiting 2 guys came along and offered to push the car because we wanted to turn it round to face the other way because it might start pointing downhill. So I got in the drivers seat and steered and used the handbreak to hold it because of course the normal break wouldn't work because there was no power with the battery being dead. We got half way across the road but it was too hard for the 3 of them to push the car so we had to give up and let the car roll back to where it was.
My dad's boss eventually showed up and connected a starter thing that goes onto the batteries. It didn't work so they decided they needed more petrol because the petrol can was only half full so my dad and Roy went to the petrol station whilst I stood around waiting for ten minutes. They came back and put the petrol in but it didn't work so his boss went in his car to his house to get the jump leads. The jump leads worked and the car started.
We were there over an hour and neither of us were pleased and it's Roys fault because if he would of taken the things off my dad in the first place we wouldn't of gone to his house and would of gotten petrol.
Anyway we eventually got to town and did what we needed to do there and then went to the supermarket. It was all a rush and my dad didn't set off for Scotland until 6:30pm when he planned on setting off at 4pm. It was a stressful afternoon!!
Friday evening I was on MSN with Dianna having an amazing time. I don't think that I have ever laughed as much. I can't even tell anyone most of the things that were said that night. It was such a crazy night that night and I didn't even get to bed until 8am Saturday morning. I only had about 4 hours sleep and I got up, I did plan on going to bed in the afternoon but that just didn't happen because I sat on the computer doing bugger all *lol*
Saturday night I ordered a pizza and was on here (MSN) with Dianna when I got a message on another chat thing off a guy I used to chat to on here. I thought it was so strange especially when he didn't seem to recognize me. He was drinking so maybe that is why. Anyway he kept sending me messages and it was quite strange but I carried on chatting to him because some of the things were making me laugh. He went to bed about 1:30am and I carried on talking with Dianna and laughing until about 5am or something like that.
I went to bed and was up about 3 hours later, I just woke up because I needed to go to the bathroom but ended up staying up. I was so tired all day, it was crazy. I then found a message (text) off the guy I was chatting to the night before. I shall refer to him as Mr X from now on. Anyway myself and Mr X were texting and talking online on and off until about 4pm when he went out.
About 8pm Sunday night Mr X rang me up when he was in the pub and we ended up staying on the phone for like an hour. About 10 minutes after he went my phone rang and his name showed up and I answered but it was his friend on the other end of the phone who started to chat me up *lol* It was all very very strange.
All night we were texting and he was ringing a lot and at times it was really annoying me because he wasn't making sense a lot of the times and his friends were all loud and drunk in the background.
I also voice chatted with Dianna online that night which was great again.
When Dianna went to bed Mr X rang me and we talked. I ended up ringing him back and we stayed up till 7am talking on the phone. It was a very strange night but the more it went on the more sober he became and we had a great conversation. At one point the conversation took a very different and enjoyable turn and that is all I will say.
I woke up just before 12pm and was worn out. I planned to go to the bathroom and then go back to sleep but I picked up my phone and found messages off Mr X so I ended up replying and I got up because we were chatting and went online and chatted and we were on the phone on and off all day and we were having such a good time.
There is a big secret around all this because he seemed to think I was someone else. It was so strange but he got it in his head that my name was something else. At first when he'd been drinking I told him my real name and kept telling him but in the end it got really annoying so I just let him think my name was something else. Which as you will soon read backfired on me.
All day Monday and all night until about 10:30pm I was talking to Mr X and was starting to fall for him and really like him. I mean like him lots and he felt the same about me but I was starting to feel really bad about him thinking I was someone else. It was horrible him calling me someone elses name but I was 100% me personality wise and I knew the person he was falling for was me except for the name.
Anyway I felt so guilty by the end of Monday night, I was quiet in the final conversation that he and I had and I sensed he could tell something was up. I went online and I was telling Dianna about how bad I felt and we both knew I had to tell him my real name and see what he said. I was so scared of him reacting badly about it because i liked him lots.
The next day I felt ill all day and couldn't concentrate on anything and was very distant in the text messages i was sending him and I was waiting for him to ask me what was wrong but he never did. Our first phone conversation was long and the guilt went a little and I was able to enjoy the conversation but I felt guilty and knew I had to tell him even though I didn't want to.
I came on MSN and talked to Dianna and she said when he gets me to ring back I have to tell him. I knew I had to but I think it's probably one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and didn't want to lose him from my life. Anyway I rang him and things were OK but in the end I confessed all and he wasn't pleased. He doesn't want anything to do with me and it hurts badly. I didn't think it would hurt as much as it does but I am really cut up about it and I am so worried that I am going to go out and do something crazy to help me feel better.
He won't even listen to me and is acting really childish in some ways but I guess that I only have myself to blame for this. I was 100% me personality wise in the chats but he doesn't seem to care that it was me who he fell for. There is nothing I can do, I would do anything just to be able to see him and explain things but I don't think he is intelligent to understand it. He is ten years older than me but sometimes he doesn't come across like he is and it's this childish side i don't like. The side of him that can't understand this is him not being intelligent enough to understand it, I'm not saying he is stupid or anything because he isn't but he just doesn't really understand where I am coming from.
I do have feelings for him, he got me and made me smile and he is very much my type but I guess it wasn't meant to be and if it is he is too stubborn to see.
Anyway I was so upset that night and didn't want to go to bed so I ended up talking to Wolf and I enjoyed spending the night on MSN with him. He is such a nice guy and he managed to cheer me up so Wolf if you are reading this - Thank You xxx
I didn't go to bed until 9am after my night online with Wolf. I was so tired that my eyes were blurry and I could barely type. It was horrible. As soon as I led down I was asleep. I slept about 5 or 6 hours and then got up because I had an assignment to do.
I had backache and couldn't do much of my assignment so I set my alarm to help me get up early this morning. I went to bed at 2:30am which is early for me. My alarm went off, I switched it off and then my phone alarm went off and I thought I would get up but then I must of fallen asleep because 30 minutes later my snooze on my phone woke me up so thank Cliff with the ***** for that.
I managed to finish 70% of my assignment in just under 2 and a half hours. I don't know how I will have done for 2 months because it's my final assignment for that course and final assignments take 2 months to come back. Anyway as long as I get 16% or over I will be allowed to do it again. 40% is a pass but I was so rushed I doubt I have got 40%. I guess i will have to wait and see.
Now I have a busy week ahead because I have 300 pages of course work to get through and a 2000 word assignment to do before the end of 5th June (Tuesday). No rest for the wicked.
Dianna, thank you for being there for me the last couple of days. I've had a hard time because of Mr X and am upset about it and having you there has been great. You can't take the pain away but you can help and you have been so thank you so much MSN was such a pain last night, it was so annoying me.
Cliff with a ***** is the king and no one can take his place and don't forget to have a very good Easter Christmas hehe
I am ill at the moment, it is horrible because i have another 250 pages of course work to get through and being sick now isn't the best time. I hope to feel much better tomorrow (Saturday) so I can spend some of the afternoon and evening studying, by the looks of it I will be studying from 9am-9pm on Sunday and with some luck I will have all the course reading done. Then Monday I will have to go through as much of the material as I can and write some notes so that means on Tuesday I will have to rush through the assignment. I hate it when it happens like this because I know I will struggle to get it all done on time. I can't even ask my tutor for a extension because I asked for one last time and she would only give me 5 days and I feel like she didn't even want to give me an extension so I can't ask for one. If by Monday I haven't even got onto doing my notes I will ask her for an extra day to work on it but I hope I don't have to in case I need an extension in the future. Some tutors are tight when it comes to giving out extensions so I don't want to ask if I can. My last course I hate two extensions but the other one I had non because I try and keep up as much as I can.
I got Snow Patrol's album and WOW! It is amazing. I didn't know what to expect but i had heard Chasing Cars (which I love) and a couple of others so I got the album and it is one of the best ones I've bought so far this year so I am very happy with it. Another great album is the one by Mark Ronson, there is some really top tunes on that.
