The River of Dreams

What a week or a week of what? haha I know I am crazy and I make no sense but when did anyone ever make any real sense?

What a week!! I think it was a week as I spent most of it ill and stressed out for various reason, I need a break badly of a change of scene at least just to get away from things but right now I don't have the time to do it and I need it now more than ever. I have had it easy study wise for a month or so and I have slacked off a lot and I don't have the time to slack off like this but the thing is my head is fried from 20 months of non stop course work. I didn't stop for any time last year as I signed on for more courses so I didn't get a break and my head isn't working and I just need to sit back and do nothing but now is the worst possible time to take time off :o(
Anyway so I am sat here now and I should be studying because I have a TMA due next week and I have a fair bit od reading before I can even look at my TMA and I just can't motivate myself and I need a good kick up the a**e or something to get me going because I need to do this assignment, it can't be late and it has to be done.

Then a week on Tuesday is my exam for A217 and then a week after that my exam for A207. I don't want to do the exam for A207 and I have said that so many times now but it is very much true because I hated the course and I didn't get it and there is so much to re-learn and I don't have the time so I must cut some stuff out but it's just getting myself motivated to read it because 5 weeks on Wednesday I need to be ready to go and sit that exam and I must pass it because this is my last chance to pass it and I don't want to have wasted my year of hard work so I must get myself motivated and get the bloody thing started. Well I did start my revision a few weeks back but I gave up after a week but I think I was ill but I am alsmot full health yet again so this it the time I need to be doing it. I might not do anything this weekend just because the pure reason I need to work on my course work for my TMA but next week I can get on to it and I shall do.
The A217 I don't know what to think about it, I need to get this TMA out the way and then that leaves me less than 3 weeks to revise and I will be honest and say I will give that more effort than the other course. I want to pass this so badly as I enjoyed the course and I don't want any resits next year so this needs my all and it can have it!!

I sooo want a car. Like so much I want a car because I love driving but I hate driving my dads car and I know when I pass I can use his car if I want but I want my own little car to drive around in and I would like a new one but that isn't going to happen. I think the best gift I can get is a car but me thinks that isn't very likely and that makes me sad, nah it doesn't but I want a car so much so I can go for drives and see my friends more often and just drive around I guess because I love driving. The only good thing about sharing my dads car would be the fact he pays for his MOT and TAX and I wouldn't need to pay that but if I had my own car I would have to pay that as well as the insurance and anything else that needs paying for. But also I know there will be times when I want his car and he will want it and I won't get it and then I won't be happy but not in a annoyed way but in a way where I want the car and can't have it but at the end of the day it is his car and it's up to him when I can and can't drive his car so I should really have my own - I guess I need to win the lottery or get a job or something as it isn't going to pay for itself lol.

I don't know if I said but my Orange phone contract is up and I am not staying with them. There is no chance as they are a rip off and I can't get the phone that I am after so me thinks that I am going to go over to O2. I am after the Nokia music phone as it looks cool and I want a music phone because I love music and want to listen to it all the time and I don't have a MP3 player though of course I would love one so the next best thing is a music phone and this one looks so cool so it is the one I want, it's the one with the shrivel bottom bit.

Not long to my birthday, well maybe 8 weeks but I am excited and am about to book the meal for the Saturday 28th. I just need to get some confirmations for it so I can book the table because it needs booking in the next week to make sure we can all fit in on that night.
I can't wait for it now, not the birthday but having Rich and Caroline in Blackburn for the weekend, I really can't wait to spend sometime with them and also for my birthday meal which should be amazing at the best place I have been too with the best starter in the world :op hehe. Yummy!!

Right so today I shall do some housework because it is a utter tip in here, I don't know how it gets to messed up in a short space of time but the second my dad goes out the vac is coming out and getting to work. Needs a good do over in here and we need some fresh air in this house too me thinks.
Then my bedroom, I have a ton of stuff next to my bed....it isn't in the way but I want to know what the hell is down there and move my spare duvet out of the way because Lucky keeps using is as a pillow when he idn't led on his bed. I hope I find some money hidded under it as I could do with some to put in my bank as I forgot somethings were coming out and it overdrew me which isn't a good things and I am not pleased about that.
Then I will have a little study and read some of the book I have been trying to finish for the past 9 months lol....I know that is a long time to have a book on the go but I pick it up and then put it down and I get into it but then I don't and it is a strange book but there is 90 pages left so if I read 45 this week and 45 next week I will finally have it out of the way. :op
What else? Not much I guess as then it will be tea time but Sunday is tomorrow (well it would be seen as today is Saturday lol) so I shall do a lot of study tomorrow and hopefully get to the point where I can look at my TMA question :o)

Off I go to where? Nobody knows ;O)