A room of our own

WOW! What a week!! I have got next to nothing done and have been ill for most of the week :O(

Basically my head has been full with a certain person and I haven't been able to get anything done because this person is on my head. I had a tma to do that was due on Wednesday and I sat down to do it on Monday and found I needed 3 days to do it in and there was no way I would get it done as I got hold of my tutor and got an extra week with plans of me starting it. I never got round to starting it as my head was filled by someone who I hadn't told they were filling my head so it got to the point where I couldn't not say something so I said something and told them that they had been filling my thoughts.
You would think that emptied my mind a little to do some study but it didn't as I was wondering all day about what I had said to them and what they had thought to what I had said to them and this is getting a little confusing now lol. Anyway the next day I wake up and I plan on getting my TMA started but as the day went on I started to feel unwell so I got nothing done and the day after I was ill and then Friday I was ill and hadn't got much sleep the night before.
Friday I did plan on sleeping this illness off but I got distracted by thoughts of a certain person and ended texting them for a few hours before going onto MSN to talk to them for a couple of hours. When they went I had plans on going to bed for a few hours as I was totally shattered but I never got there as I decided to wait up for my tea which didn't come for a few more hours so at that point I thought I will have an early night and go to bed at 10pm but I never made it to bed until 5am this morning!!
Last night was messed up in some ways and I am still feeling from it, I don't know how I stayed up till that time but I know I feel like rubbish now and want to go to bed and sleep for like ten hours if I can. I slept maybe 4-5 hours and I feel every bit of it as I don't feel like I slept at all, it doesn't help one bit that I am ill as it wouldn't effect me as much if I was 100% well. I do feel better than I did yesterday (health wise) but the tiredness is making me feel unwell and I know it will keep me unwell if I don't get some serious sleep and soon!!

So back to the tma, I haven't started and I am hoping I will spend about 6 hours on it tomorrow as I need to and want to but it all depends on how I feel when I wake up. I hope I feel well enough and can get into it and have it sorted so I can work on it Monday and Tuesday and submit it on Tuesdsy evening. It wont be easy and is going to be a lot of work but I need to get it in and not blow this course which I will do if I don't get it done and I don't want all my hard work to be wasted!!
In three weeks I have my next TMA and the final one for this course but in the mean time I have five weeks of course work to get through in order to get it done.

The A207 course work isn't getting read and I am stressed. I need to get through as much as I can and think I won't do it in order and will pick a book a time depending on what I spent the least time on last year. I need to get myself into gear with that as I don't want another year wasted!! I do wish I didn't have to go through it all like I do as there is someone that I would rather be spending my time with, I just hope they understand why I have to put my course work and exams first. I have worked so hard and I don't want to blow it, I do feel I am going to blow it for my resit exam as I don't want to have to relearn the course but I know I have to for there to be a chance on me passing this time - this is my last chance and I hate that!!
If it was up to me I wouldn't do all this reading etc but I know with that attitude and lack of preparation I won't pass the exam and I have worked so hard over the years and it is what I have chosen so I need to stick to it and not let myselt get distracted!!

There is somewhere I would rather be right now and someone I would rather be with right now and if that person is reading this then they should know I am talking about them :O) All I will day is I am sat here with a massive smile on my face as I think about them. I hope I bring a smile to their face the way that they bring one to me :O)

Anyway I have to go and be bored lol