Confusion

Why is life in general quite confusing? Especially when it comes to your emotions?
Some people go through life doing all they can to avoid hurting people... I am one of those people and I'm not afraid to admit that.
People go through life trying to be there for everything and to help them through the hard times in their lives....I am one of those people.
People go through life trying not to get hurt but always end up getting hurt....I am one of those people.
I want to make people happy and I feel like I am a people pleaser but no matter what I do I can't seem to make everyone happy let alone myself. I don't know why this seems to be but trying to make everyone happy is not working and it's not making me happy.
It's so confusing to why I am this way and always trying my best to be the one that makes everyone happy when I myself is searching for some kind of happiness. Is me wanting to be happy such a bad thing? I hope it isn't and I hope that one day I can put myself first and be happy.