DISK ONE
Queen
Somebody To Love
Robbie Williams
Angels
Anastacia
Left Outside Alone
The Calling
Wherever You Will Go
Oasis
Little By Little
4 Non Blondes
Whats's Up
Cher
I Found Someone
Tina Turner
We Don't Need Another Hero (Thunderdome)
Meat Loaf
Two Out Of Three Ain't Bad
Maria McKee
Show Me Heaven
Jamelia
Stop
Labi Siffre
(Something inside) So Strong
Joe Cocker & Jennifer Warnes
Up Where We Belong
Roy Orbison
Crying
Air Supply
All Out Of Love
Toto
I Won't Hold You Back
Marillion
Lavender
Pandora's Box
It's All Coming Back To Me Now
DISK TWO
Europe
The Final Countdown
Bonnie Tyler
Holdong Out For A Hero
Belinda Carlisle
Leave A Light On
Cheap Trick
I Want You To Want Me
Roxette
The Look
Foreigner
Cold As Ice
Huey Lewis & The News
If This Is It
Reo Speedwagon
Take It On The Run
Journey
Don't Stop Believin'
Stevie Nicks
Rooms On Fire
Carly Simon
Nobody Does It Better
Paul Carrack
When You Walk In The Room
Mike And The Mechanics
Over My Shoulder
Joe Cocker
You Can Leave Your Hat On
The Tubes
Don't Want to Wait Anymore
The Animals
House Of The Rising Sun
Deep Purple
Child In Time
Meat Loaf
I'd Lie To you (And That's The Truth)
Friday, December 31, 2004
My Dog is sick :-(
My Dog is really sick :-(
I noticed over the last couple of weeks that he was scratching his ears more than useral and that every now and then he was yelping with pain when he was scrathing.
Over the past few days I've noticed that he's been carefully scracthing his ear but no matter how gentle he is he is still yelping in pain from it.
The night before last he didn't sleep all night and I know because he sleeps in my room and he was yelping all night when he was scrathing his ear.
It's gotten so bad that he is walking around with his head tilted to one side and is shaking it like he has water caught in it. He is trying not to scratch it but everytime he lifts his paw to his ear I know he's gonna yelp in pain.
Even though I know he's gonna yelp in pain it still makes me jump when he does it' It's now upsetting me so much seeing the dog in so much pain and not being able to do anything about it.
I wish that I could give him something for it but I'm not a vet so I can't.
I know he's got a ear infection as I recognize the symptoms and I know he's in a lot of pain from it.
It's also spread to one of his ears so one of his eyes is starting to look a mess and it's so upsetting to see him like that.
My dad is trying to get the dog in the vets today and I said ring round as many as you have to as he needs to go to a vets today as I'm not willing to wait till Tuesday for the dog to be seen as he's in so much pain now.
I just wish I'd realized days ago what's wrong with him as it wouldn't of gotten so bad but I just thought he'd hurt his ear and that he would be ok in a few days.
I hope he's gonna be ok as I love that dog so much!!!!
I noticed over the last couple of weeks that he was scratching his ears more than useral and that every now and then he was yelping with pain when he was scrathing.
Over the past few days I've noticed that he's been carefully scracthing his ear but no matter how gentle he is he is still yelping in pain from it.
The night before last he didn't sleep all night and I know because he sleeps in my room and he was yelping all night when he was scrathing his ear.
It's gotten so bad that he is walking around with his head tilted to one side and is shaking it like he has water caught in it. He is trying not to scratch it but everytime he lifts his paw to his ear I know he's gonna yelp in pain.
Even though I know he's gonna yelp in pain it still makes me jump when he does it' It's now upsetting me so much seeing the dog in so much pain and not being able to do anything about it.
I wish that I could give him something for it but I'm not a vet so I can't.
I know he's got a ear infection as I recognize the symptoms and I know he's in a lot of pain from it.
It's also spread to one of his ears so one of his eyes is starting to look a mess and it's so upsetting to see him like that.
My dad is trying to get the dog in the vets today and I said ring round as many as you have to as he needs to go to a vets today as I'm not willing to wait till Tuesday for the dog to be seen as he's in so much pain now.
I just wish I'd realized days ago what's wrong with him as it wouldn't of gotten so bad but I just thought he'd hurt his ear and that he would be ok in a few days.
I hope he's gonna be ok as I love that dog so much!!!!
Blackburn Road Runners Website
I am now incharge of the Blackburn road runners website.
so from now on what you see on there is what I've done.
I didn't think that I was able to do it as it's in Java but I have the pass words and all that to gain access and it's no where near as hard as I thought it would be and it's just another learning process. It didn't take me too long to work out how to overwrite things and post new posts so it won't take me long to learn how to add new sections and upload pictures.
I can't wait to get started on it and I've already come up with a new section that I want to add to the website and now I need to write it up and keep it updated each week.
I've decided to write a training schedule for the London marathon based on a Training Schedule Runners World have come up with so I will have to make sure that I properly reference them as I don't want to get in trouble. So that's what I will be working on.
If anyone wants to have a look then the link is:
http://www.blackburnroadrunners.co.uk/
so from now on what you see on there is what I've done.
I didn't think that I was able to do it as it's in Java but I have the pass words and all that to gain access and it's no where near as hard as I thought it would be and it's just another learning process. It didn't take me too long to work out how to overwrite things and post new posts so it won't take me long to learn how to add new sections and upload pictures.
I can't wait to get started on it and I've already come up with a new section that I want to add to the website and now I need to write it up and keep it updated each week.
I've decided to write a training schedule for the London marathon based on a Training Schedule Runners World have come up with so I will have to make sure that I properly reference them as I don't want to get in trouble. So that's what I will be working on.
If anyone wants to have a look then the link is:
http://www.blackburnroadrunners.co.uk/
What I definitely wanted
Was The NEW Evanescence DVD.
It was on my Christmas list but I didn't end up with it so when I was in town looking through the sales last Monday I saw it in the big W and bought it.
I love Evanescence and really wanted the DVD.
It is a two disk DVD/CD set. I've only watched the DVD and haven't as of yet listened to the CD but I may do later when I'm doing my hair after my bath.
The DVD alone is so worth the £12.99 that I paid for it as it has the concert on, lots of backstage footage and the four videos that go with the four singles that they have released.
EXCELLENT DVD
It was on my Christmas list but I didn't end up with it so when I was in town looking through the sales last Monday I saw it in the big W and bought it.
I love Evanescence and really wanted the DVD.
It is a two disk DVD/CD set. I've only watched the DVD and haven't as of yet listened to the CD but I may do later when I'm doing my hair after my bath.
The DVD alone is so worth the £12.99 that I paid for it as it has the concert on, lots of backstage footage and the four videos that go with the four singles that they have released.
EXCELLENT DVD
Christmas List - what I got
Here is a list of what I got for Christmas:
From My Mum I got:
A Worry Box
which is a nice chest box shaped box which inside has three glass angels
A pair of Silver Rennie mackintosh inspired earrings
I just love rennie mackintosh jewelry and what my mum doesn't know is the earrings my mum got me matches the necklace that my dad got me a couple of years ago
A mini eyeshadow set
its the gel type eyeshadow and the colours are nice
A mini Lipstick set
a really nice set that looks nice and the colours are perfect
A silver Fashion Necklace
its a fashion necklace and the necklace is a shoe. A slingback shoe with diamontes on the heel of the shoe.its a really cool necklace
A pink bag
it matches the white one I have. I now need to get the black one and I have the set. The only thing is I spilt a can of diet coke in my white one and put loads of tissue in and left the bag and was about to throw it out even though I like it but I will oook inside to see if the dies coke has damaged it and if it has I will have to throw it out
A Silver Nail Ring
its really strange and I've never seen anything like it before and u wear it over your finger nail but I don't think that it looks right and its actually to big to wear
A Nicky Clarke Hairset
It comes in a big aluminum case. Inside the case it has a black velvet lining and a mirror at the back of it. Inside is a hair straightener with this blades like I wanted and a hair curler like I was after even though I would of liked a slighlty fatter one. It also has a round brush in it as well as four velcro curlers and four sectioning clips. Also there is two sashes of intenive conditioner as well as a tube/pump of straightening balm
From My Brother Barry and Sister in law Shellie I got:
Maroon 5 Album
the album is called "songs about Jane" and I love all the four singles that have been released off the album so I really wanted the album
From My Brother Duncan I got:
A Silver Bracelet
the bracelet is from H Samuels and I remember seeing it and really wanting it but not being able to afford it. I really love the bracelet and got my dad to put it on me the secong I opened it and I haven't taken it off my right wrist since I got it cos I love it
From my Friend Pete I got:
Christina Aguliara DVD
it's from her stripped tour of 2003 at Wembley. Its a great DVD and when I saw that it was out I really wanted it.im so happy with it as it is a fantastic concert
Britney Spears Greatest hits Album
I like a lot of britney songs, god I can hear you all cringe now. But she does have some really good songs on here and its a great album to put on whilst cleaning so you can dance your way round the house whilst cleaning...hehe
Robbie Williams Greatest Hits album
Robbie had released some really good songs over the last ten years, yes there are some that I am not too sure about but I love 90% of this album and you cant knock him as he has writted some really good songs over the years
Power Ballads III Album
I got power ballads II when I was up in Hamilton for the first time and it was the most I've ever payed for an album as it was £15.99. when I got home I played the album all the time as it was such a fantastic album. So when I saw power ballads III was out I really wanted it and I'm so happy I got it. I must admit I do prefer II but III is really good as well. I just want to get power ballads I now and then I have the collection. I wonder if they will bring a power ballads IIII out?
Ultimate 80's Album
I love 80's music and anyone know knows me will know that. I just love 80's music, its fantastic but I don't really have any 80's albums but loved the look of this one and thought it was perfect to start of my 80's albums collection. Its a double album with a DVD in it
From My Dad I got:
Barefoot Doctor gift Set
I've been wanting to get something from the barefoot doctors range for a couple of years now. I just love the names of the products and wanted to try to range. The gift set I got was the second biggest and I would of settled for the smallest even though it was just bath salts. I haven't tried the set yet but it smells nice so I may try it today by having a bath
FCUK Gift set
I love fcuk. I love the clothes range and I love the smell of the mens gift set range and always get one of my brothers as fcuk gift set and this year I got him a set and my dad. I just had to put the gift set one my list for me as well. I asked for the £12 one as I really wanted that one and the £30 one. I didn't ask my dad for the £30 but I asked someone else for it. My dad ended up getting me the £18 one which I live and have smelt the stuff and tried a little on the back of my hand but I don't want to use the stuff as it looks and smells so nice that I don't want it to run out
Trevor Sorbie Hairbrush Set
I actually put these on last years list but they had sold out and said they would probably have some in the Jan but never did and I ended up with a book for my course instead and a haircut. So this year I put them on the list and they were in which I am glad about as I wanted them so much. They are so much nicer than I thought they would be
The Big Toni and Guy Hairset
I had actually asked for the miniature set which had five products in and was only 310. I have never tried Toni and guys products before so I didn't want to ask for the big gift set incase it was rubbish. But they didn't have the small on in so my dad paid £15 more and got the big one which had big products in as well as a hair brush
Pure Poison perfume
my fav perfume is hypnotic poison and when I heard about the pure poison a couple of months back I decided I wanted it so I went and smelt it and liked it. I asked my dad to ask my mum to get it me for my birthday but she already had got me something. So when Christmas was coming up I was looking through boots gift guide and saw the pure poison gift set and asked for that. I only ended up with the perfume as they didn't have the gift set in
FCUK all night set
this is the gift set that was £30 and that I had asked someone else for. I ended up with it because it was reduced to £20 and I really wanted it so my dad decided to get it because he knew that I didn't want to miss out on getting it incase the other person who I asked to get it couldn't get it. I didn't get everything I asked my dad for because he got me this instead of something else
Toni and Guy Hair Product
my dad got me an additional product because he wanted me to have everything that was in the mini gift set. The big gift set had one of the items missing so he decided to top it up with the extra product that was missing
Sanctuary Gift Set
I love the sancuary body wash and I wanted the gift set. The £30 one was the one that I really wanted and I had asked omeone else to get it me but when I saw this one which was £15 I really wanted it so I ended up with this one. I really love the body wash and the body scrub but I'm not a fan of the body lotion as I put it on after shaving anf it burnt so much that I wont be buying that in the future but I will buy the body wash and scrub.
From Katie and Marc I got:
Rituals Gift Set
which is a really nice set that I've already tried and like
I still have some more presents to come which is great...hehe
I really love all my presents as they are all fantastic and all that I wanted. There was a few things that I didn't get like a new pair of PJs but I'm sure I can pick a new pair up in the sales now that the sames are on.
There was also one more album that I wanted for xmas which was now 52 but I may buy that myself. I know that I am going to go to the HMV sale and see what they have in. I'm hoping to get a couple of albums in the sale and maybe one off the list of new albums that I want.
Degree's, Certificates and Diplomas'
I've now decided what Degree I'm doing via the Open University.
I'm going back to my original degree of choice after I kind of got pushed of track a little by doing what other people wanted me to do.
Thankfully I haven't way layed my degree much and should be finished in 2007 like I first planned.
I can't wait to get my degree done and I've heard that each qualification that you do , as in each course you pass, you can use it to count towards to different qualifications so by the time I'm 26 I'm going to have the flowering at least:
Certificate in Humanities
Certificate in Information Technology and Computing
Advanced Diploma in Special Needs in Education
BA (Honours) Humanities
That's just for starters as I can use some of my other courses to count towards certificates and Diplomas so by the end of 2008 I will probably have another Certificate and maybe another Diploma.
Then when I have got them I will be taking a break of at least two years from the Open University before I do a MA. I will have that by the time I'm 30 and then I plan just to do a couple of diplomas and maybe another degree by time I'm 40 but I won't be pushing myself like I will be doing over the next three years but to me this isn't touture or anything as I am really enjoying it and I know that it's going to be hard work but it is all going to be worth it once it is done.
I never in a million years thought I would enjoy learning and studying as much as I do now but I really do enjoy it so much. I get a lot of enjoyment out of it.
The only disappointment that I have is this year I won't be able to do a Summer School as I have used my 120 points but I will be doing a level 3 Summer School to go with on of the level three courses that I am going to be doing.
Next Feb (2006) I'm looking forward to doing AA310 as I wanted to do it this year (2005) but didn't want to as I hadn't done a level two course and I didn't want to go straight into level three but next year I am do looking forward to doing it. I wish it could have a Oct 2005 start as I've been looking forward to doing it for the longest time now and I have to wait another year now to do it but I've got plenty to keep me occupied in the mean time.
I'm going back to my original degree of choice after I kind of got pushed of track a little by doing what other people wanted me to do.
Thankfully I haven't way layed my degree much and should be finished in 2007 like I first planned.
I can't wait to get my degree done and I've heard that each qualification that you do , as in each course you pass, you can use it to count towards to different qualifications so by the time I'm 26 I'm going to have the flowering at least:
Certificate in Humanities
Certificate in Information Technology and Computing
Advanced Diploma in Special Needs in Education
BA (Honours) Humanities
That's just for starters as I can use some of my other courses to count towards certificates and Diplomas so by the end of 2008 I will probably have another Certificate and maybe another Diploma.
Then when I have got them I will be taking a break of at least two years from the Open University before I do a MA. I will have that by the time I'm 30 and then I plan just to do a couple of diplomas and maybe another degree by time I'm 40 but I won't be pushing myself like I will be doing over the next three years but to me this isn't touture or anything as I am really enjoying it and I know that it's going to be hard work but it is all going to be worth it once it is done.
I never in a million years thought I would enjoy learning and studying as much as I do now but I really do enjoy it so much. I get a lot of enjoyment out of it.
The only disappointment that I have is this year I won't be able to do a Summer School as I have used my 120 points but I will be doing a level 3 Summer School to go with on of the level three courses that I am going to be doing.
Next Feb (2006) I'm looking forward to doing AA310 as I wanted to do it this year (2005) but didn't want to as I hadn't done a level two course and I didn't want to go straight into level three but next year I am do looking forward to doing it. I wish it could have a Oct 2005 start as I've been looking forward to doing it for the longest time now and I have to wait another year now to do it but I've got plenty to keep me occupied in the mean time.
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Happy Christmas
Happy Christmas and a Happy new year!!!!
I had a great Christmas day yesterday, it was FANTASTIC!!!!
I got a lot of really nice things that I just love and I', so grateful for all the things that I got.
The day itself was great with a lot of great food and nice wineand the tele was also good with Happy Potter being one of the highlights as well as Vicar of Dibley and Ab Fab.
I will tell you about my day in more detail when I have more time. I'm now off to watch some more tele.
I had a great Christmas day yesterday, it was FANTASTIC!!!!
I got a lot of really nice things that I just love and I', so grateful for all the things that I got.
The day itself was great with a lot of great food and nice wine
I will tell you about my day in more detail when I have more time. I'm now off to watch some more tele.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Still sick :-(
I'm STILL sick, well that was likely anyway but I think it's at its worse so hopefully it can only get better from now on.
I didn't get up till 2pm this afternoon and I was asleep not long after midnight last night. My sleep was pretty restless though and filled full of weird dreams that freaked me out a little.
The thing that is bothering me the most about this illness is the temperature that I have. I'm so hot from it and it is making me feel worse. I'm so dehydrated because of it and I'm not fully with it and most of the time I don't have a clue what's going on around me or what I'm saying.
I know once my temperature has gone down I will start to feel better. I am hoping to be well enough for Christmas day so I have three more days to get over it.
I have so much stuff that I am meant to be doing like cleaning the house as my mum is coming round in the next couple of days and the house needs cleaning before she comes round. I'm gonna try to do 30 mins of tidying this afternoon and just leave the floors till I know what day she is coming round as I am not up to cleaning the floors right now, maybe tomorrow.
I also have two Christmas cakes to ice and marzipan. I hate doing that at the best of times but now I am ill I really hate it because I don't feel up to it. One of them was meant to be done by today so I am going to have to do it this afternoon so it can be took to who it is being given to. The other one is our cake so that can wait till I'm up to it. I can even do it on Christmas day as we probably won't even eat any on Christmas day anyway. Well I won't be eating any as it is disgusting.
I didn't get up till 2pm this afternoon and I was asleep not long after midnight last night. My sleep was pretty restless though and filled full of weird dreams that freaked me out a little.
The thing that is bothering me the most about this illness is the temperature that I have. I'm so hot from it and it is making me feel worse. I'm so dehydrated because of it and I'm not fully with it and most of the time I don't have a clue what's going on around me or what I'm saying.
I know once my temperature has gone down I will start to feel better. I am hoping to be well enough for Christmas day so I have three more days to get over it.
I have so much stuff that I am meant to be doing like cleaning the house as my mum is coming round in the next couple of days and the house needs cleaning before she comes round. I'm gonna try to do 30 mins of tidying this afternoon and just leave the floors till I know what day she is coming round as I am not up to cleaning the floors right now, maybe tomorrow.
I also have two Christmas cakes to ice and marzipan. I hate doing that at the best of times but now I am ill I really hate it because I don't feel up to it. One of them was meant to be done by today so I am going to have to do it this afternoon so it can be took to who it is being given to. The other one is our cake so that can wait till I'm up to it. I can even do it on Christmas day as we probably won't even eat any on Christmas day anyway. Well I won't be eating any as it is disgusting.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
I'm sick!"!!!!
Hey I managed to get ill just in time for Christmas.
I was ill last Christmas and it looks that I am going to be sick this Christmas.
I've got a cold that seems to be getting worse as the day goes on.
I started to get it last night and went to bed for over 12 hours hoping to wake up not feeling worse but I've been up three hours now and I seem to be getting worse :-(
So I've just taken some Night Nurse and I'm off to bed in ten minutes to hopefully sleep till tomorrow lunch time with a break in a few hours for some food.
I hope I'm ok for Christmas day.
I was ill last Christmas and it looks that I am going to be sick this Christmas.
I've got a cold that seems to be getting worse as the day goes on.
I started to get it last night and went to bed for over 12 hours hoping to wake up not feeling worse but I've been up three hours now and I seem to be getting worse :-(
So I've just taken some Night Nurse and I'm off to bed in ten minutes to hopefully sleep till tomorrow lunch time with a break in a few hours for some food.
I hope I'm ok for Christmas day.
Thursday, December 09, 2004
Not much to say
I know that I haven't wrote anything in my Blog for a long time now but atm I kind of feel like I have nothing to say.
Tons have gone on but I just think that I have got out of the habit of writing things in here.
It's like 16 days now until Christmas day and atm I don't feel too festive which is unuseral for me as Christmas is my favorite time of year, I just don't know what is up with me atm. Maybe I will start to feel more festive over the next week or so. I haven't completed my xmas shopping and I'm at a loss of what to get. I have nearly everyone's main presents and I just want to get a few things to go with them.
I didn't get all the cakes made when I was surpassed to and I only did mine and my Dad's the other day, so I made it two and a half weeks before xmas when they really should be made six to eight weeks before but never mind. I'm gonna make a chocolate log the week leading up to xmas as I love them and I have never made one before so it should be fun. I'm also planning on making some mince pies as well. You know the funny thing is I don't like either the cake or mince pies. On xmas day I also make my own stuffing for the turkey which everyone seems to love.
I'm so looking forward to getting my course work for my next course, it's due to be sent out tomorrow so I can't wait. I'm gonna get a little bit of a head start on it so I'm three or four weeks ahead for when the course starts. That way I shouldn't fall behind and I won't have to rush my way through my assignments like I've been known to do, I'm gonna try my best and see if I can get scores higher than I have ever gotten. The highest mark I have ever got was 77% so I know I can get high ,marks. I'm gonna try my best to get a 80% on this course, this course is harder as it is a level 2 course but I am going to work hard on it.
Tons have gone on but I just think that I have got out of the habit of writing things in here.
It's like 16 days now until Christmas day and atm I don't feel too festive which is unuseral for me as Christmas is my favorite time of year, I just don't know what is up with me atm. Maybe I will start to feel more festive over the next week or so. I haven't completed my xmas shopping and I'm at a loss of what to get. I have nearly everyone's main presents and I just want to get a few things to go with them.
I didn't get all the cakes made when I was surpassed to and I only did mine and my Dad's the other day, so I made it two and a half weeks before xmas when they really should be made six to eight weeks before but never mind. I'm gonna make a chocolate log the week leading up to xmas as I love them and I have never made one before so it should be fun. I'm also planning on making some mince pies as well. You know the funny thing is I don't like either the cake or mince pies. On xmas day I also make my own stuffing for the turkey which everyone seems to love.
I'm so looking forward to getting my course work for my next course, it's due to be sent out tomorrow so I can't wait. I'm gonna get a little bit of a head start on it so I'm three or four weeks ahead for when the course starts. That way I shouldn't fall behind and I won't have to rush my way through my assignments like I've been known to do, I'm gonna try my best and see if I can get scores higher than I have ever gotten. The highest mark I have ever got was 77% so I know I can get high ,marks. I'm gonna try my best to get a 80% on this course, this course is harder as it is a level 2 course but I am going to work hard on it.
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
one month
wow doesn't time fly?
it's been a full month since I have written anything in my blog.
well I do have things to write and will be doing so over the next few days but for now just a message to say....
I am STILL ALIVE and I will be back SOON....................
it's been a full month since I have written anything in my blog.
well I do have things to write and will be doing so over the next few days but for now just a message to say....
I am STILL ALIVE and I will be back SOON....................
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Long Time.......
Wow I haven't wrote anything on here since the first and now it's the 20th.
I have had a busy month so far and have been ill twice now. I am still getting over the second illness but I am sure that I will be back to myself again this time next week if not sooner.
I have been doing so much and I have so much coming up that I don't think I have enough time to go into it all right now.
First of all I have been spending the last few weeks decorating the house. I really love decorating but I have taken on such a big job and I want to have it all finish this time next week.
To have it all finished this time next week is going to be a push as I have so much left to do but I am going to work as hard as I can with hope that it is finished by Wednesday next week.
I am really enjoying the decorating, it is very therapeutic and great for the mind as it gives me a chance to think and I also find it very relaxing, it's great. I get lost in my own little world everytime that I paint and I never get bored painting, in fact I find that time flys by whilst I am painting.
So I won't be able to write much in my blog over the next week and beyond that.
Next Friday James is coming down to visit me and I really can't wait. I have been looking forward to it for ages now and next Friday can't come any sooner as far as I am concerned.
He'll be here at about 1pm next Friday after his journey down from Scotland and then we will be bringing his stuff back to here before we go and visit my mum as he's going to meet her before he meets all the family on the Saturday.
On Saturday the 30th October we will be going over to Clayton Le Moor's and will be staying here: http://www.maplelodgehotel.co.uk/
Then on the Saturday nite we will be going down to my step Dad's 60th Birthday party which is 5 minutes away from Maple Lodge. I am really looking forward to the party as I will be seeing people that I haven't seen for a long time. I will also be meeting members of my family that I have never met before. There is about 100 people coming and I think I know 20 of them.
I'll tell you who I know who is definitely coming to the party.
I will know:
My mum, My step Dad, My Dad, my brother Barry, My brother Duncan, Shellie who is Barry's long term partner, Barry's and Shellie's children who are Katie and Marc, Shirley who is my mum's best friend, Mark Hill who is Shirley's boyfriend, Lauren who is Shirley's and Mark's daughter, Dill who is one of the artist's who is booked to sing and play guitar at the party and who I have known since I was about 7, Tracey who is my stp sister, Norma who is my step Dad's ex wife. I think that's all that I know. If there are anymore that I know then I can't remember them right now. I know some others that have been invited but haven't said whether or not they are coming or not.
It should be a fun night as they are having karekoe as well.
Then on the Sunday me and James will be staying in another hotel, I don't know which one it is as James hasn't told me yet as he wants it to be a surprise so I will have to wait and see.
Then on the Monday (which is my 22nd birthday) I will be going to another hotel till Friday. James hasn't told me where I am going on the Monday but he said that it isn't in Lancashire and it is a city north of Birmingham. I am guessing that it is Manchester as I love Manchester. I use to live in the Manchester area for about 7 years of my life so it'll be great to go to Manchester. I really love it there. I am just said that I won't be able to go shopping as I don't have any money :O( so I am going to be a little sad about that. I don't know what he has got planned for us to do when we get where ever we are going but just as long as he has things planned I will be very happy. Just as long as we are not doing what I hate with a vengeance then I will be more than happy. What I hate with a vengeance is walking round shops for hours and not buy anything. I really hate that. I don't mind window shopping but I can not stand walking round all day in shops and nothing getting bought because I hate that and it drives me mad.
Manchester is a cool place and I hadn't been into the city for a long time till last summer when I went to UMIST for my Summer School. UMIST is right in the centre on Manchester and it's only two minutes walk until you are in the centre and I managed to go in to the centre of Manchester on the last morning of Summer School and I was mesmerized by the size of it all. It's fantastic and it's so close to where I live as well. When I went down to Summer School with my Dad it took us 35 minutes to get there which was fantastic. And the trafford centre is about 25 minutes away from me yet I have only been there once and I went into the entertainment building that time but I am hoping to go to the main trafford centre this time if I am going but just as long as we are not walking aroung for hours buying nothing.
We are away till the Friday and then coming back home. James might be going back up to Scotland then which I am not very happy about as he told me that he wanted to stay up until the day he had to go back to work on the Monday so that meant he was going to go back on the Sunday. I even managed to find him a cheap train ticket for the Sunday but he has changed his mind about staying and that has upset me a little as I was hoping that we could go and see a firework display on the Friday night as it'll be bonfire night. He said he might stay and that we will have to see but I know what he is like and that he will probably go home on the Friday.
So I am looking forward to all of that and I can't wait for James to come down here but up until then I will be very busy decorating the house. In fact I am now off to go and strip the paper off my ceiling so that it can be painted.
I have had a busy month so far and have been ill twice now. I am still getting over the second illness but I am sure that I will be back to myself again this time next week if not sooner.
I have been doing so much and I have so much coming up that I don't think I have enough time to go into it all right now.
First of all I have been spending the last few weeks decorating the house. I really love decorating but I have taken on such a big job and I want to have it all finish this time next week.
To have it all finished this time next week is going to be a push as I have so much left to do but I am going to work as hard as I can with hope that it is finished by Wednesday next week.
I am really enjoying the decorating, it is very therapeutic and great for the mind as it gives me a chance to think and I also find it very relaxing, it's great. I get lost in my own little world everytime that I paint and I never get bored painting, in fact I find that time flys by whilst I am painting.
So I won't be able to write much in my blog over the next week and beyond that.
Next Friday James is coming down to visit me and I really can't wait. I have been looking forward to it for ages now and next Friday can't come any sooner as far as I am concerned.
He'll be here at about 1pm next Friday after his journey down from Scotland and then we will be bringing his stuff back to here before we go and visit my mum as he's going to meet her before he meets all the family on the Saturday.
On Saturday the 30th October we will be going over to Clayton Le Moor's and will be staying here: http://www.maplelodgehotel.co.uk/
Then on the Saturday nite we will be going down to my step Dad's 60th Birthday party which is 5 minutes away from Maple Lodge. I am really looking forward to the party as I will be seeing people that I haven't seen for a long time. I will also be meeting members of my family that I have never met before. There is about 100 people coming and I think I know 20 of them.
I'll tell you who I know who is definitely coming to the party.
I will know:
My mum, My step Dad, My Dad, my brother Barry, My brother Duncan, Shellie who is Barry's long term partner, Barry's and Shellie's children who are Katie and Marc, Shirley who is my mum's best friend, Mark Hill who is Shirley's boyfriend, Lauren who is Shirley's and Mark's daughter, Dill who is one of the artist's who is booked to sing and play guitar at the party and who I have known since I was about 7, Tracey who is my stp sister, Norma who is my step Dad's ex wife. I think that's all that I know. If there are anymore that I know then I can't remember them right now. I know some others that have been invited but haven't said whether or not they are coming or not.
It should be a fun night as they are having karekoe as well.
Then on the Sunday me and James will be staying in another hotel, I don't know which one it is as James hasn't told me yet as he wants it to be a surprise so I will have to wait and see.
Then on the Monday (which is my 22nd birthday) I will be going to another hotel till Friday. James hasn't told me where I am going on the Monday but he said that it isn't in Lancashire and it is a city north of Birmingham. I am guessing that it is Manchester as I love Manchester. I use to live in the Manchester area for about 7 years of my life so it'll be great to go to Manchester. I really love it there. I am just said that I won't be able to go shopping as I don't have any money :O( so I am going to be a little sad about that. I don't know what he has got planned for us to do when we get where ever we are going but just as long as he has things planned I will be very happy. Just as long as we are not doing what I hate with a vengeance then I will be more than happy. What I hate with a vengeance is walking round shops for hours and not buy anything. I really hate that. I don't mind window shopping but I can not stand walking round all day in shops and nothing getting bought because I hate that and it drives me mad.
Manchester is a cool place and I hadn't been into the city for a long time till last summer when I went to UMIST for my Summer School. UMIST is right in the centre on Manchester and it's only two minutes walk until you are in the centre and I managed to go in to the centre of Manchester on the last morning of Summer School and I was mesmerized by the size of it all. It's fantastic and it's so close to where I live as well. When I went down to Summer School with my Dad it took us 35 minutes to get there which was fantastic. And the trafford centre is about 25 minutes away from me yet I have only been there once and I went into the entertainment building that time but I am hoping to go to the main trafford centre this time if I am going but just as long as we are not walking aroung for hours buying nothing.
We are away till the Friday and then coming back home. James might be going back up to Scotland then which I am not very happy about as he told me that he wanted to stay up until the day he had to go back to work on the Monday so that meant he was going to go back on the Sunday. I even managed to find him a cheap train ticket for the Sunday but he has changed his mind about staying and that has upset me a little as I was hoping that we could go and see a firework display on the Friday night as it'll be bonfire night. He said he might stay and that we will have to see but I know what he is like and that he will probably go home on the Friday.
So I am looking forward to all of that and I can't wait for James to come down here but up until then I will be very busy decorating the house. In fact I am now off to go and strip the paper off my ceiling so that it can be painted.
Friday, October 01, 2004
Got back late Saturday night
As you know I went to Scotland early Friday morning on the 24th September. I will tell you all about that another time when I can be bothod to go into it all.
I finally got off the train in Preston at 8:30pm on Saturday night and I was so glad to get off that train as it was a journey and a half.
I was so shaky from the experience that I was more than happy to be stepping off the train.
I then had to stand around waiting for my dad to arrive for about 15 minutes but I was glad of the fresh air outside.
My dad pulled up with Lucky sat beside him in the front seat and I thought that was so cute.
Then I had to go to Blackburn from Preston in the car which seemed to take forever but I think only took 20 minutes but as I had been sat still for nearly 3 hours that extra 20 minutes seemed like a life time.
When I finally arrived home just after 9pm I was more than ready for bed but I didn't want to go to bed. So I made myself something to eat and I sat down to watch some TV but I just couldn't concentrate. I think that I finally gave up at trying to concentrate at about 11pm and went to bed.
I was still awake at midnight because I wasn't feeling too well and I had lots going through my mind. I think I finally managed to fall asleep about 1am and I slept till lunch time the next day but I was still extremely tired when I woke up.
I finally got off the train in Preston at 8:30pm on Saturday night and I was so glad to get off that train as it was a journey and a half.
I was so shaky from the experience that I was more than happy to be stepping off the train.
I then had to stand around waiting for my dad to arrive for about 15 minutes but I was glad of the fresh air outside.
My dad pulled up with Lucky sat beside him in the front seat and I thought that was so cute.
Then I had to go to Blackburn from Preston in the car which seemed to take forever but I think only took 20 minutes but as I had been sat still for nearly 3 hours that extra 20 minutes seemed like a life time.
When I finally arrived home just after 9pm I was more than ready for bed but I didn't want to go to bed. So I made myself something to eat and I sat down to watch some TV but I just couldn't concentrate. I think that I finally gave up at trying to concentrate at about 11pm and went to bed.
I was still awake at midnight because I wasn't feeling too well and I had lots going through my mind. I think I finally managed to fall asleep about 1am and I slept till lunch time the next day but I was still extremely tired when I woke up.
Monday, September 20, 2004
TXR174 .... TMA results
my tutor has emailed me my results for my TMA.
I passed!!!!!
That is the good news but I didn't do as well as I know I could of done.
If only I hadn't been sick I would of gotten the 80% I was hoping for.
I knew that I wouldn't get the 80% I wanted because I was sick and I didn't do as well as I could of done and I was hoping for 60%.
Well I got OVER 60% and I am so HAPPY at that but I am a little disappointed at what I submitted and I realized my mistakes once it had been sent. Is it always that way? I do think I could do so much better with another chance at it.
I would love to do that course again as I enjoyed doing it so much and now I have done the TMA's I know that I can get a lot higher marks next time.
The marks that I have gotten from this course has been a lot higher than the marks I have goeen for other courses but I think that has been down to really enjoying this course so it has given me something to work towards. Unlike T171 I just want to pass the ECA because I have not enjoyed the course at all and all I want to do is get the ECA out of the way and pass the course. I will be upset if I fail that course as I have out up with it for the last nine months.
With TXR174 I have worked hard on it and enjoyed it and I could of worked harder and I am sad for it to finish as I have really enjoyed it.
I passed!!!!!
That is the good news but I didn't do as well as I know I could of done.
If only I hadn't been sick I would of gotten the 80% I was hoping for.
I knew that I wouldn't get the 80% I wanted because I was sick and I didn't do as well as I could of done and I was hoping for 60%.
Well I got OVER 60% and I am so HAPPY at that but I am a little disappointed at what I submitted and I realized my mistakes once it had been sent. Is it always that way? I do think I could do so much better with another chance at it.
I would love to do that course again as I enjoyed doing it so much and now I have done the TMA's I know that I can get a lot higher marks next time.
The marks that I have gotten from this course has been a lot higher than the marks I have goeen for other courses but I think that has been down to really enjoying this course so it has given me something to work towards. Unlike T171 I just want to pass the ECA because I have not enjoyed the course at all and all I want to do is get the ECA out of the way and pass the course. I will be upset if I fail that course as I have out up with it for the last nine months.
With TXR174 I have worked hard on it and enjoyed it and I could of worked harder and I am sad for it to finish as I have really enjoyed it.
Made the first of three
Yesterday I made the first of three Christmas cakes that I am going to be making.
I know that it is almost 14 weeks till Christmas but they need to mature and I also feed them with brandy.
I don't like them at all but everyone else seems to love them for some reason.
I might end up making more than three Christmas cakes as I am sure people are going to be asking me to make them a cake. I will make the cakes for people if they pay for the ingredients and the icing and marzipan and all that.
I enjoy making them even though at times they can be a pain to do but I enjoy making them as it's therapeutic.
So I have one made and I shall be making the next one a week on Saturday as I am going away on Friday so I won't be able to make one this weekend.
I know that it is almost 14 weeks till Christmas but they need to mature and I also feed them with brandy.
I don't like them at all but everyone else seems to love them for some reason.
I might end up making more than three Christmas cakes as I am sure people are going to be asking me to make them a cake. I will make the cakes for people if they pay for the ingredients and the icing and marzipan and all that.
I enjoy making them even though at times they can be a pain to do but I enjoy making them as it's therapeutic.
So I have one made and I shall be making the next one a week on Saturday as I am going away on Friday so I won't be able to make one this weekend.
No more this year
I have decided that I am not going to do any more courses this year and I am going to have a break for a couple of months.
I am NOT at my most motivated at the moment so I want to get my head together and get myself motivated for next January when the course I want to do starts.
I know that if I start a course now that I won't be fully into it and I won't give it my all so I am not going to do one.
I don't know what I will do with my spare time but I was thinking of reading a lot of books from the library and learn new things that way and I can get books out on the subjects that I plan to do next year so I will be better prepared when they start.
I was also thinking of taking a new hobby or something up over then next few months to keep me busy and to also give me a new interest and to stop me from getting bored whilst I am not studying.
I am NOT at my most motivated at the moment so I want to get my head together and get myself motivated for next January when the course I want to do starts.
I know that if I start a course now that I won't be fully into it and I won't give it my all so I am not going to do one.
I don't know what I will do with my spare time but I was thinking of reading a lot of books from the library and learn new things that way and I can get books out on the subjects that I plan to do next year so I will be better prepared when they start.
I was also thinking of taking a new hobby or something up over then next few months to keep me busy and to also give me a new interest and to stop me from getting bored whilst I am not studying.
Two and a half hours and only 10% through..........
so far I have spent two and a half hours on my ECA for T171 and I am only 10% through it.
There is so much to do and I didn't realize how much there is to do until I was working on it last night.
I am going to hopefully spend three hours on it today and the same tomorrow and Wednesday.
Thursday I will probably spend about two hours on it as I am off to Scotland on Friday morning.
I want to be about 70% through it before I go to Scotland as I will only have Three days to get it finished when I get back.
It has to be 60% done before I can go and if it's any less than that then I will NOT allow myself to go.
But as I want to go to Scotland so much I will make sure that I do the work and put in the effort.
It's so hard this ECA and I will be so glad when it is finished but I will be so worried about if I have passed or not. As I have said before I will be happy to just pass as I have NOT enjoyed this course one bit so 40% will make me happy.
I think the hardest thing is waiting three months for my results, that is pure torture.
There is so much to do and I didn't realize how much there is to do until I was working on it last night.
I am going to hopefully spend three hours on it today and the same tomorrow and Wednesday.
Thursday I will probably spend about two hours on it as I am off to Scotland on Friday morning.
I want to be about 70% through it before I go to Scotland as I will only have Three days to get it finished when I get back.
It has to be 60% done before I can go and if it's any less than that then I will NOT allow myself to go.
But as I want to go to Scotland so much I will make sure that I do the work and put in the effort.
It's so hard this ECA and I will be so glad when it is finished but I will be so worried about if I have passed or not. As I have said before I will be happy to just pass as I have NOT enjoyed this course one bit so 40% will make me happy.
I think the hardest thing is waiting three months for my results, that is pure torture.
Friday couldn't come sooner
Friday really couldn't come sooner.........
I am really looking forward to going to Scotland on Friday and I can't wait till Friday gets here.
I do have an awful lot to do in between now and Friday but I will be so glad when I am on my way up to Scotland on Friday.
Well Thursday afternoon is the time that I am looking forward to as Ii can stop work on the ECA and start to get my clothes and things together and pack.
I will admit again that I am NOT looking forward to my train journey and I will be so glad to get off that train in Glasgow because I will feel so sick by the time comes to get off that train.
I know that James is really looking forward to seeing me again and that Friday couldn't come sooner for him.
Four more days and I will be there. It's 12:10pm now and that's the sort of time I will be in Scotland again. It only took just 2 hours to get to Scotland last time from Preston and that was with ten minutes of stopping. I was so happy to get there because I was feeling sick and the last twenty minutes or so of the journey was hard as I felt sick.
I am just so excited about going and seeing James, I really can't wait.
I am really looking forward to going to Scotland on Friday and I can't wait till Friday gets here.
I do have an awful lot to do in between now and Friday but I will be so glad when I am on my way up to Scotland on Friday.
Well Thursday afternoon is the time that I am looking forward to as Ii can stop work on the ECA and start to get my clothes and things together and pack.
I will admit again that I am NOT looking forward to my train journey and I will be so glad to get off that train in Glasgow because I will feel so sick by the time comes to get off that train.
I know that James is really looking forward to seeing me again and that Friday couldn't come sooner for him.
Four more days and I will be there. It's 12:10pm now and that's the sort of time I will be in Scotland again. It only took just 2 hours to get to Scotland last time from Preston and that was with ten minutes of stopping. I was so happy to get there because I was feeling sick and the last twenty minutes or so of the journey was hard as I felt sick.
I am just so excited about going and seeing James, I really can't wait.
Picked one course.
I have picked one of the course that I want to start next year:
http://www3.open.ac.uk/courses/bin/p12.dll?C02A207
When I was finishing up with A103 http://www3.open.ac.uk/courses/bin/p12.dll?C01A103_1_59 last year I was thinking of doing the above course as my next course choice so I have gone full circle and ended up back at it.
I would of done it as I did want to do a degree in the Humanities but I was told by a certain person that wouldn't get me anywhere in life. I then started a business degree and choose three courses to do. Only one of which I really wanted to do and I did them to please the person that told me that a degree in the humanities won't get me anywhere in life.
During studying these courses I realized that I should do what I want to do because I really didn't want to do a business degree and I was finding the maths too hard. So with the courses I was doing I found out that I could only do a BA if I was to include all the courses I was doing into it so I am doing a BA.
A BA is also good because I can do all the courses I like the look of and what I want to do so I am happy with the BA but when I have finished this degree I will do another degree in one area.
I now need to find another course to start next year as I want to do the 60 point course that I have picked above and I also want to do a 30 point course as well. So I will be looking for a course over the next few days to apply for.
http://www3.open.ac.uk/courses/bin/p12.dll?C02A207
When I was finishing up with A103 http://www3.open.ac.uk/courses/bin/p12.dll?C01A103_1_59 last year I was thinking of doing the above course as my next course choice so I have gone full circle and ended up back at it.
I would of done it as I did want to do a degree in the Humanities but I was told by a certain person that wouldn't get me anywhere in life. I then started a business degree and choose three courses to do. Only one of which I really wanted to do and I did them to please the person that told me that a degree in the humanities won't get me anywhere in life.
During studying these courses I realized that I should do what I want to do because I really didn't want to do a business degree and I was finding the maths too hard. So with the courses I was doing I found out that I could only do a BA if I was to include all the courses I was doing into it so I am doing a BA.
A BA is also good because I can do all the courses I like the look of and what I want to do so I am happy with the BA but when I have finished this degree I will do another degree in one area.
I now need to find another course to start next year as I want to do the 60 point course that I have picked above and I also want to do a 30 point course as well. So I will be looking for a course over the next few days to apply for.
Friday, September 17, 2004
eBay!!!!
I really like going on eBay and looking around for things. The only problem is I always want so much stuff and I always have so little money.
There are some real bargains on eBay and I just like looking for things that I want or need and getting them for a bargain.
I have bought a few things on eBay over the last few days and ended up saving a bit of money.
I am going to put the links of them in here but if you wanna see what I bought then you are going to have to copy and paste them in to your browser.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5323807501&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT with that Item I probably ended up saving about £15- 20.00 on those items as they are very expensive make up brands.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5519160156&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT I also saved a couple of pounds with this item also.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5519159827&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT - this item again I probably saved a couple of pounds.
So there really is a lot of bargains on eBay. The things I have just shown you may not interest you but there are a lot of new products on eBay at a very cheap price.
There are some real bargains on eBay and I just like looking for things that I want or need and getting them for a bargain.
I have bought a few things on eBay over the last few days and ended up saving a bit of money.
I am going to put the links of them in here but if you wanna see what I bought then you are going to have to copy and paste them in to your browser.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5323807501&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT with that Item I probably ended up saving about £15- 20.00 on those items as they are very expensive make up brands.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5519160156&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT I also saved a couple of pounds with this item also.
http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=5519159827&ssPageName=STRK:MEWN:IT - this item again I probably saved a couple of pounds.
So there really is a lot of bargains on eBay. The things I have just shown you may not interest you but there are a lot of new products on eBay at a very cheap price.
ECA......
I really should of started my ECA by now but I haven't even fully read the questions.
I need to have finished it by Thursday evening next week at the latest as the next day I am off to Scotland for a couple of days.
The ECA looks really hard and I am worried about falling it. I have put up with the course for the last nine months as I have not enjoyed it at all and I really don't want to fail it.
So I am planning on sitting down at the computer tomorrow and reading through the questions and then make a start on the ECA.
I am hoping to have the draft finished by Tuesday night and on Wednesday go over it and re do it and make it all nice and ready to go and hopefully on Thursday it will be reading and I can hopefully concentrate on packing for Friday.
So I really have to motivate myself now and get this ECA done. I have told myself that if it isn't finished by Thursday tea time at the latest I will not be going to Scotland on Friday so now I really must motivate myself into doing this ECA.
I need to have finished it by Thursday evening next week at the latest as the next day I am off to Scotland for a couple of days.
The ECA looks really hard and I am worried about falling it. I have put up with the course for the last nine months as I have not enjoyed it at all and I really don't want to fail it.
So I am planning on sitting down at the computer tomorrow and reading through the questions and then make a start on the ECA.
I am hoping to have the draft finished by Tuesday night and on Wednesday go over it and re do it and make it all nice and ready to go and hopefully on Thursday it will be reading and I can hopefully concentrate on packing for Friday.
So I really have to motivate myself now and get this ECA done. I have told myself that if it isn't finished by Thursday tea time at the latest I will not be going to Scotland on Friday so now I really must motivate myself into doing this ECA.
Mobile phones
I have been offered the latest Nokia video phone if I stay with Orange when my contract is up next month.
The offer is a brilliant offer but I don't know if I should take it.
I am really bad when it comes to my phone. I run up massive bills. I am lucky if my bill is under £150 a month and I really can't afford to carry on doing that because I never have any money for myself because it is all going on my phone bills.
I really want to keep my contract and get the latest Nokia video phone but if I do I really have to make my minutes and texts last and not go over them.
I know what I am like so I really do have to stick to the minutes and texts because I can no longer afford to keep on going over as I really never have any money to myself.
The offer is a brilliant offer but I don't know if I should take it.
I am really bad when it comes to my phone. I run up massive bills. I am lucky if my bill is under £150 a month and I really can't afford to carry on doing that because I never have any money for myself because it is all going on my phone bills.
I really want to keep my contract and get the latest Nokia video phone but if I do I really have to make my minutes and texts last and not go over them.
I know what I am like so I really do have to stick to the minutes and texts because I can no longer afford to keep on going over as I really never have any money to myself.
Why?
Why does hearing things about people that we least expect to hear shock us so much?
I found out something shocking about a person close to me that has really shocked me.
It's kind of shaken me up because it is the last thing that I expected to hear.
Sometimes we build up images of people in our minds and see them in certain ways and see them as the people we see them as.
I found something out about a really close person in my life and even though it happened years ago it really is effecting me and I really don't know how to get over it. I know that may sound silly, the fact I need to get over it, but I am so shocked about what I have been told.
My feelings about what I have been told are all over the place so I don't really know what I feel about it but I know that I am in a deep shock about it and I just can't seem to get it off my mind.
I found out something shocking about a person close to me that has really shocked me.
It's kind of shaken me up because it is the last thing that I expected to hear.
Sometimes we build up images of people in our minds and see them in certain ways and see them as the people we see them as.
I found something out about a really close person in my life and even though it happened years ago it really is effecting me and I really don't know how to get over it. I know that may sound silly, the fact I need to get over it, but I am so shocked about what I have been told.
My feelings about what I have been told are all over the place so I don't really know what I feel about it but I know that I am in a deep shock about it and I just can't seem to get it off my mind.
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Making Birthday cake
I started to make my step dad's birthday cake for his 60th.
The cakes I make take two months in total.
They are rich fruit cakes and I feed them with brandy.
People say that they are the best cakes they have ever tried and beg me to make them for them.
These cakes are not cheap to make. They probably cost £30 in total to make including icing. So they are not cheap cakes.
The funny thing is I don't like them at all and prefer sponge cake.
Anyway my mum asked me to make one for my step fathers 60th Birthday. She's getting a big sponge cake for the party but she wanted something for the family so she asked me to do her the cake.
I was actually meant to make it the weekend before last but I forgot to make it so it didn't get done. Then I was gonna do it the weekend just gone but I didn't end up doing it.
I started to soak the fruit yesterday so I could do it today. So now I have to mix all the other ingredients together and put in the oven.
It takes forever to cook and I have to keep an eye over it as that cooker plays up and cooks things faster than it should so I will be having to cookers temperature lower than it should be as it cooks the cake faster than it should be cooked and ends up ruinin the cake.
The cake is needed in 46 days so that is long enough. That's just over six weeks so I have managed to do it in time.
So I shall be mixing all the ingredients together soon and then I shall be putting it in the oven.
The cakes I make take two months in total.
They are rich fruit cakes and I feed them with brandy.
People say that they are the best cakes they have ever tried and beg me to make them for them.
These cakes are not cheap to make. They probably cost £30 in total to make including icing. So they are not cheap cakes.
The funny thing is I don't like them at all and prefer sponge cake.
Anyway my mum asked me to make one for my step fathers 60th Birthday. She's getting a big sponge cake for the party but she wanted something for the family so she asked me to do her the cake.
I was actually meant to make it the weekend before last but I forgot to make it so it didn't get done. Then I was gonna do it the weekend just gone but I didn't end up doing it.
I started to soak the fruit yesterday so I could do it today. So now I have to mix all the other ingredients together and put in the oven.
It takes forever to cook and I have to keep an eye over it as that cooker plays up and cooks things faster than it should so I will be having to cookers temperature lower than it should be as it cooks the cake faster than it should be cooked and ends up ruinin the cake.
The cake is needed in 46 days so that is long enough. That's just over six weeks so I have managed to do it in time.
So I shall be mixing all the ingredients together soon and then I shall be putting it in the oven.
Monday, September 13, 2004
T171 - TMA04 ...the funny thing is............
I finally finished my TMA for T171 last week and got it in on Tuesday.
I got my results back on Saturday morning.
I had spent the longest on that TMA out of all the TMAs that I have done for T171 and you wanna know something?
Hard work doesn't mean anything these days as I failed it.
I wasn't too bothod about getting only 40% as this course is truly rubbish and all I want to do is pass the course.
But I failed. I can still pass the course as Ii have enough points from previous TMAs for it to not matter.
So I am still on track but I have to make sure that I pass the ECA. I have to pass that no matter what because you have to pass that in order to pass the course.
So it really goes to show that I could of spent less time on the TMA than I did because I was gonna fail anyway.
I am not willing to fail the course though as it has been a tough 8 months on the course as it has bored me to death and I am NOT into it one bit so it has been a challenge for me to carry on doing it and also I am not willing to waste 8 months of my time and 30 points.
Also now I have to limit my OU courses and do less points per year I can not afford to lose the 30 points and I have done the work so I have to make sure that I pass.
I got my results back on Saturday morning.
I had spent the longest on that TMA out of all the TMAs that I have done for T171 and you wanna know something?
Hard work doesn't mean anything these days as I failed it.
I wasn't too bothod about getting only 40% as this course is truly rubbish and all I want to do is pass the course.
But I failed. I can still pass the course as Ii have enough points from previous TMAs for it to not matter.
So I am still on track but I have to make sure that I pass the ECA. I have to pass that no matter what because you have to pass that in order to pass the course.
So it really goes to show that I could of spent less time on the TMA than I did because I was gonna fail anyway.
I am not willing to fail the course though as it has been a tough 8 months on the course as it has bored me to death and I am NOT into it one bit so it has been a challenge for me to carry on doing it and also I am not willing to waste 8 months of my time and 30 points.
Also now I have to limit my OU courses and do less points per year I can not afford to lose the 30 points and I have done the work so I have to make sure that I pass.
W200 Understanding Law
I applied for a finicial reward for W200 as I can NOT afford the £1,550 fee.
I had to send them a letter to prove how much benefit I get per week and you wanna know how much they offered to take off the £1,550 fee?
They offered to take off £225 ...... Yes you are reading that right. They offered me a crappy £225 off the fee.
Where on gods earth do they expect me to get the balance from? People on benefits don't have a stash of spare cash hanging around.
If I did have that much in the bank there is more important things that I need before I can even condsider that.
I wanted to do that course more than anything and I have been looking forward to doing it for over a year.
I think what they have offered me is pathetic and I will be emailing them to tell them so. Where would someone on benefits find the balance from?
God these people are so stupid...They know how much you get per week and they expect you to have over a grand lying around somewhere. Do these people live on the same planet as you and I?
This all puts my degree behind as I was playing on taking about 100 -110 points this year but I can't because they are only allowing me £500 per year towards my courses when before they never had this rule. I really think that this is unfair. I was trying to do my degree in four years but now there is no chance of that because they are not paying for my courses any more when I need them paying for as there is no way what so ever that I can pay for these courses myself.
I had to send them a letter to prove how much benefit I get per week and you wanna know how much they offered to take off the £1,550 fee?
They offered to take off £225 ...... Yes you are reading that right. They offered me a crappy £225 off the fee.
Where on gods earth do they expect me to get the balance from? People on benefits don't have a stash of spare cash hanging around.
If I did have that much in the bank there is more important things that I need before I can even condsider that.
I wanted to do that course more than anything and I have been looking forward to doing it for over a year.
I think what they have offered me is pathetic and I will be emailing them to tell them so. Where would someone on benefits find the balance from?
God these people are so stupid...They know how much you get per week and they expect you to have over a grand lying around somewhere. Do these people live on the same planet as you and I?
This all puts my degree behind as I was playing on taking about 100 -110 points this year but I can't because they are only allowing me £500 per year towards my courses when before they never had this rule. I really think that this is unfair. I was trying to do my degree in four years but now there is no chance of that because they are not paying for my courses any more when I need them paying for as there is no way what so ever that I can pay for these courses myself.
Friday, September 03, 2004
TMA04 - T171
I am sat here now posting on my Blog......There is nothing wrong with that.
I really should be finishing off my TMA for T171.
I got a weeks extension on it because I was ill and the weeks extension ended yesterday at midnight.
It got to about 10pm last night and I was sat here answering the questions but I was very tired so I started to miss read the questions and started babbling on about a load of rubbish so I had to leave the computer as I was too tired to concentrate on it.
I emailed my tutor last night asking if it was OK if I could submit it this evening, I have had no reply so I hope to god that it is OK otherwise I will fail my course which I don't want to do.
Anyway I really should not be writing my blog and instead I should be finishing my TMA. I just can not get myself motivated and I am looking at the questions and nothing is coming to me.
The difference between this TMA and the TMA that I did for TXR174 is the fact that I don't mind just passing my TMA on this course because I know I am NOT putting in the hard work that I should be because I really lost interest in this course a while back and so did a few other people that I know that are doing the course.
I have never got as low a mark as 40% on it and I hope I don't as anyone can get at least 40% but I am at the point of not caring too much if I get 40% just as long as I pass.
I am going to go and do a few things around the house before I start to do some work on the TMA as it'll help clear my mind so that when I come back to the computer I will be able to hopefully concentrate on the TMA as I really need to finish it and have it in by 7 ish as I don't want to annoy my tutor.
I really should be finishing off my TMA for T171.
I got a weeks extension on it because I was ill and the weeks extension ended yesterday at midnight.
It got to about 10pm last night and I was sat here answering the questions but I was very tired so I started to miss read the questions and started babbling on about a load of rubbish so I had to leave the computer as I was too tired to concentrate on it.
I emailed my tutor last night asking if it was OK if I could submit it this evening, I have had no reply so I hope to god that it is OK otherwise I will fail my course which I don't want to do.
Anyway I really should not be writing my blog and instead I should be finishing my TMA. I just can not get myself motivated and I am looking at the questions and nothing is coming to me.
The difference between this TMA and the TMA that I did for TXR174 is the fact that I don't mind just passing my TMA on this course because I know I am NOT putting in the hard work that I should be because I really lost interest in this course a while back and so did a few other people that I know that are doing the course.
I have never got as low a mark as 40% on it and I hope I don't as anyone can get at least 40% but I am at the point of not caring too much if I get 40% just as long as I pass.
I am going to go and do a few things around the house before I start to do some work on the TMA as it'll help clear my mind so that when I come back to the computer I will be able to hopefully concentrate on the TMA as I really need to finish it and have it in by 7 ish as I don't want to annoy my tutor.
Finally finished and sent TMA05 for TXR174
I finally finished my TMA for TXR174 and I was ever so glad to have finished it and printed it.
I do wish that I could have it back because I have realized all the mistakes that I have made on it.
Things from how it is set out to the grammar and to the report itself. I know I could do a lot better than what I have done and I am now dreading the mark that I am going to get.
I have really realized the error of my ways with that TMA and if I just had an extra hour or two I could make that TMA 10 times better than what it is.
I am almost ashamed of the effort that I have submitted and wish that I could do more work on it as there is some stuff that needs taking out, changing and adding.
I am so worried about it and I was tired when I thought I had finished it and printed it off but I now realize it was a stupid mistake to finish it off when I was so tired as I know that I have gone down the wrong route with my answers and what I discuss in it.
My tutor is going to be wondering what the hell I am going on about in it because it looks as though someone wrote it but didn't go to Summer School. It looks as though I didn't take any notice at Summer School but I did and I really enjoyed the Water Quality Activity and I know what I should of wrote.
I was having a big problem with writers block as well because everytime I sat down the words didn't want to come out and then I got to the point I was looking at the questions and they were leaving me dazed and confused. I was also ill and in bed and when I got out of bed to do some of it I wasn't feeling well at all.
I know that there is nothing that I can do now as my tutor has it and is marking it but I am really dreading these results as I know they are not going to be good and that I could of done a better job on my TMA.
My TMA was 21 pages long in the end plus an extra page that I added on top to make it look a little more presentable but it was so thick that I couldn't fit it in one of those A4 plastic sheet things. My dad did suggest to me to put it in a few but as it wasn't set out to be like that it wouldn't of looked write.
Now as I am typing this I am thinking that maybe I should of used 22 individual covers so it was all in those plasitc thingys so it is water prooth and looks ok but maybe that would of been stupid.
I wish that I had one of those plasic A4 covers at home that you slide your work into side ways as it would of looked nice in one of them.
But there is no point in wishing I had done this and that because I didn't and I am only wishing these things because now that the TMA has gone I now know what to write on it and I can't because my tutor has it.
I do wish that I could have it back because I have realized all the mistakes that I have made on it.
Things from how it is set out to the grammar and to the report itself. I know I could do a lot better than what I have done and I am now dreading the mark that I am going to get.
I have really realized the error of my ways with that TMA and if I just had an extra hour or two I could make that TMA 10 times better than what it is.
I am almost ashamed of the effort that I have submitted and wish that I could do more work on it as there is some stuff that needs taking out, changing and adding.
I am so worried about it and I was tired when I thought I had finished it and printed it off but I now realize it was a stupid mistake to finish it off when I was so tired as I know that I have gone down the wrong route with my answers and what I discuss in it.
My tutor is going to be wondering what the hell I am going on about in it because it looks as though someone wrote it but didn't go to Summer School. It looks as though I didn't take any notice at Summer School but I did and I really enjoyed the Water Quality Activity and I know what I should of wrote.
I was having a big problem with writers block as well because everytime I sat down the words didn't want to come out and then I got to the point I was looking at the questions and they were leaving me dazed and confused. I was also ill and in bed and when I got out of bed to do some of it I wasn't feeling well at all.
I know that there is nothing that I can do now as my tutor has it and is marking it but I am really dreading these results as I know they are not going to be good and that I could of done a better job on my TMA.
My TMA was 21 pages long in the end plus an extra page that I added on top to make it look a little more presentable but it was so thick that I couldn't fit it in one of those A4 plastic sheet things. My dad did suggest to me to put it in a few but as it wasn't set out to be like that it wouldn't of looked write.
Now as I am typing this I am thinking that maybe I should of used 22 individual covers so it was all in those plasitc thingys so it is water prooth and looks ok but maybe that would of been stupid.
I wish that I had one of those plasic A4 covers at home that you slide your work into side ways as it would of looked nice in one of them.
But there is no point in wishing I had done this and that because I didn't and I am only wishing these things because now that the TMA has gone I now know what to write on it and I can't because my tutor has it.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Train tickets
I bought my train tickets online on Friday evening about 10pm and they have arrived today which I think is good.
They cost me £20.50 in total and this time I didn't get the insurance even though it is only £1 each way.
The train ticket up cost me £12.00 and the ticket back cost me £8.50. So the tickets were cheaper than the last time. If I wanted to go a week later the ticket there would cost me the same but the ticket back would of cost me £35.00.
I am hoping to back up for a couple of days early December as then I won't see him till next year so I want to see him once more before the end of the year.
I managed to get forward facing seats on the way there but on the wy back they are not forward facing even though I asked for them. Last time I sat in a forward facing seat because there was no way that I could travel backwards for three hours, I couldn't manage it for three minutes without being sick.
I found that coming back the seats are all facing backwards except for two at each table. So I am hoping that there is spare seats at the table and that if they are booked that no one will complain and sit in another seat as there is no way that I can travel backwards.
They cost me £20.50 in total and this time I didn't get the insurance even though it is only £1 each way.
The train ticket up cost me £12.00 and the ticket back cost me £8.50. So the tickets were cheaper than the last time. If I wanted to go a week later the ticket there would cost me the same but the ticket back would of cost me £35.00.
I am hoping to back up for a couple of days early December as then I won't see him till next year so I want to see him once more before the end of the year.
I managed to get forward facing seats on the way there but on the wy back they are not forward facing even though I asked for them. Last time I sat in a forward facing seat because there was no way that I could travel backwards for three hours, I couldn't manage it for three minutes without being sick.
I found that coming back the seats are all facing backwards except for two at each table. So I am hoping that there is spare seats at the table and that if they are booked that no one will complain and sit in another seat as there is no way that I can travel backwards.
Visiting James......Again!
I am going to visit James......Again!
I really can not wait to go up there and I am so looking forward to it.
I am going in just over three weeks time and I am so excited about my visit up there.
This time I am NOT going for as long as last time. I am going for two days this time. I do wish that it was longer but he only has two days a week off work and I didn't want to go up for four days and end up being on my own again for 8 hours of the day and then only seeing him for a few hours on that day.
The funny thing is I am going up at exactly the same time that I went up last time and I am coming back down at exactly the same time as I came back last time.
By two days I mean two day. I am going up one day and coming back the next day.
I really am missing James and wish that I was up there now and that he lived closer but I am sure that these three weeks will just fly by and that it'll be here before we know it.
I know that I have plenty to keep me busy in the next three weeks. I have a TMA to finish today. Tomorrow I have course work to catch up with and then Thursday I have a TMA to do and submit before midnight. I then have to start my ECA. So that will keep me busy.
On top of that I have to do stuff around the house. We are decorating and I am doing the majority of that. My step dad is giving us paint which we will be collecting this weekend. But first of all there are little jobs that need to be done round the house before we can start decorating.
So I can not wit to go up there but I do have plenty to do to keep me busy in the mean time.
I really can not wait to go up there and I am so looking forward to it.
I am going in just over three weeks time and I am so excited about my visit up there.
This time I am NOT going for as long as last time. I am going for two days this time. I do wish that it was longer but he only has two days a week off work and I didn't want to go up for four days and end up being on my own again for 8 hours of the day and then only seeing him for a few hours on that day.
The funny thing is I am going up at exactly the same time that I went up last time and I am coming back down at exactly the same time as I came back last time.
By two days I mean two day. I am going up one day and coming back the next day.
I really am missing James and wish that I was up there now and that he lived closer but I am sure that these three weeks will just fly by and that it'll be here before we know it.
I know that I have plenty to keep me busy in the next three weeks. I have a TMA to finish today. Tomorrow I have course work to catch up with and then Thursday I have a TMA to do and submit before midnight. I then have to start my ECA. So that will keep me busy.
On top of that I have to do stuff around the house. We are decorating and I am doing the majority of that. My step dad is giving us paint which we will be collecting this weekend. But first of all there are little jobs that need to be done round the house before we can start decorating.
So I can not wit to go up there but I do have plenty to do to keep me busy in the mean time.
Change of dates
James is till coming to visit me but the date has changed.
I had a choice and boy what a difficult choice that was.
I had to choose between him coming down in the middle of September for about six days of him coming down at the end of October for about the same length of time.
As I have just said the date has changed you can guess that I picked the end of October. That is what I did, I don't know the exact days yet but as soon as I do I am sure that I will put them on here.
He is coming down for my step Dad's 60th Birthday party which is on the 30th October and is also going to be here for my Birthday as well.
In case you didn't know my birthday is on the 1st of November and this year I will be the grand old age of 22.
So I really can not wait to see him on those days as it should be fun and special.
I now have to save some money to buy a really nice outfit. I was thinking of a nice flowing skirt and a nice top to go with it and maybe a new pair of strappy shoes to go with my new outfit depending on (a) how much the outfit cost and (b) what the outfit is as I may have a pair that goes with the outfit already.
I had a choice and boy what a difficult choice that was.
I had to choose between him coming down in the middle of September for about six days of him coming down at the end of October for about the same length of time.
As I have just said the date has changed you can guess that I picked the end of October. That is what I did, I don't know the exact days yet but as soon as I do I am sure that I will put them on here.
He is coming down for my step Dad's 60th Birthday party which is on the 30th October and is also going to be here for my Birthday as well.
In case you didn't know my birthday is on the 1st of November and this year I will be the grand old age of 22.
So I really can not wait to see him on those days as it should be fun and special.
I now have to save some money to buy a really nice outfit. I was thinking of a nice flowing skirt and a nice top to go with it and maybe a new pair of strappy shoes to go with my new outfit depending on (a) how much the outfit cost and (b) what the outfit is as I may have a pair that goes with the outfit already.
Sick
I have been sick for the past week. It is now Tuesday the 31st August 2004 and I am sat here feeling quite unwell and on edge and frustrated about my TMA for TXR174.
I started to get sick last week about this time and I didn't really know I was sick, I was just very run down and tired and just feeling unwell.
On Thursday I woke up with a cold and knew straight away that if I didn't take any Night Nurse I will be struck down with a heavy cold for the next three weeks.
I took Night Nurse and knew that there was going to be no way that I could do my TMA so I was so glad when I found out that my tutor Brian had returned from his holiday.
I then emailed him and asked for some achieve on my TMA as I am having the hardest time with it as well as struggling from writers block and at the same time I asked for a few extra days on it which he gave me, thank god!
I could then go to bed for the next three days. Some days I slept a lot but other days I just led there relaxing. I finally got back up on Sunday to start my TMA, well finish it, but I just could not find the energy as well as the words to do it. So I then sat back at the computer yesterday afternoon but all that came was about 200 words in total. I am really struggling with this TMA and I don't have a clue what the hell is wrong with me. When I am NOT sat at the computer I think about my TMA and I know things that I want to write and include but everytime I sit down nothing comes out and I get very frustrated. I am at the point were I can no longer concentrate for longer than 10 minutes and it really is doing my head in now as I know I can do it and I want to do it but the words are just not flowing.
I have now been sat here for a hour or two and I am trying to do this TMA as I need to post it tomorrow but the words are not coming to me yet again and I feel like screaming. I know I can pass this TMA but as you already know I want to more than pass. I now know that I can NOT do as well as I would of liked on this TMA because of my writers block. I know what ever I wtrite or do in this TMA that it is NOT going to be as good as I can do. I know I can do a lot better than the TMA I am going to be forced to submit. I really know I can do a lot better than what I am going to submit but the creative juices are just NOT flowing so I am just going to have to do it the only way I can do because of my writers block and I know it is going to be around a 40% score mark for me just because of this writers block and frustration that is going on. I know that I will NOT score over 50% for this TMA and it REALLY does sadden me because I know I can do a TMA worthy of 80%. I am NOT just saying that to sound cleaver or make myself out better than I am because I am the person with low expectations of myself. I am the one who knows that I am not the best and never will be the best at anything. I usually know what mark I can and will get and I am usually right. I am the person that doe put themselves down but I am the person who knows what I can accomplish and do and by putting myself down it saves me from having other people put me down and when they do I am NOT surprised as I already knew myself.
When I say I could get 80% I really know that I can get it but with the writers block and everything I know that I am going to score between 40 and 60% for this TMA. And I won't get 60% if I don't get my head together and get working on this TMA.
I started to get sick last week about this time and I didn't really know I was sick, I was just very run down and tired and just feeling unwell.
On Thursday I woke up with a cold and knew straight away that if I didn't take any Night Nurse I will be struck down with a heavy cold for the next three weeks.
I took Night Nurse and knew that there was going to be no way that I could do my TMA so I was so glad when I found out that my tutor Brian had returned from his holiday.
I then emailed him and asked for some achieve on my TMA as I am having the hardest time with it as well as struggling from writers block and at the same time I asked for a few extra days on it which he gave me, thank god!
I could then go to bed for the next three days. Some days I slept a lot but other days I just led there relaxing. I finally got back up on Sunday to start my TMA, well finish it, but I just could not find the energy as well as the words to do it. So I then sat back at the computer yesterday afternoon but all that came was about 200 words in total. I am really struggling with this TMA and I don't have a clue what the hell is wrong with me. When I am NOT sat at the computer I think about my TMA and I know things that I want to write and include but everytime I sit down nothing comes out and I get very frustrated. I am at the point were I can no longer concentrate for longer than 10 minutes and it really is doing my head in now as I know I can do it and I want to do it but the words are just not flowing.
I have now been sat here for a hour or two and I am trying to do this TMA as I need to post it tomorrow but the words are not coming to me yet again and I feel like screaming. I know I can pass this TMA but as you already know I want to more than pass. I now know that I can NOT do as well as I would of liked on this TMA because of my writers block. I know what ever I wtrite or do in this TMA that it is NOT going to be as good as I can do. I know I can do a lot better than the TMA I am going to be forced to submit. I really know I can do a lot better than what I am going to submit but the creative juices are just NOT flowing so I am just going to have to do it the only way I can do because of my writers block and I know it is going to be around a 40% score mark for me just because of this writers block and frustration that is going on. I know that I will NOT score over 50% for this TMA and it REALLY does sadden me because I know I can do a TMA worthy of 80%. I am NOT just saying that to sound cleaver or make myself out better than I am because I am the person with low expectations of myself. I am the one who knows that I am not the best and never will be the best at anything. I usually know what mark I can and will get and I am usually right. I am the person that doe put themselves down but I am the person who knows what I can accomplish and do and by putting myself down it saves me from having other people put me down and when they do I am NOT surprised as I already knew myself.
When I say I could get 80% I really know that I can get it but with the writers block and everything I know that I am going to score between 40 and 60% for this TMA. And I won't get 60% if I don't get my head together and get working on this TMA.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
What a nightmare!!!!!
I have two TMAs to do!!!!!!!!
One is due in today.......But I haven't even started it!!!!......I managed to get hold of my tutor who gave me an extra week even though he isn't happy about it!!!!!.....As I am meant to be starting on my ECA....He has warned me not to fall behind as that is the most important part of the course and CAN NOT be submitted a minute late......... I better get myself motivated and going as soon as I can as I really do not want to fail this course.
The other TMA is due in on Monday and I'm having problems with this one....I know what I want to write for the main bit of it but everytime I sit down to do it the words don't come to me.....I am at a loss of what to do right now......I wish that I had started it before my tutor had gone away as I could ask him the questions that I am stuck on....My tutor comes back the day before it is due in so I don't know what to do.......I have asked questions in the conference but I am still at a loss of what to do as my brian doesn't seem to be working right now and nothing is helping me to understand it more......I don't know what to do. I have to send it on Saturday but the thing is...It won't get there on Monday (the day it is due) because it is bank holiday Monday......So I really don't know what to do....I also don't know if I can have it finished by then!!!!!
I know I can probably do enough to just pass (if that) but I want more than that...I really do but my brain isn't working at all and I am really getting frustrated with it......I just wish I knew what was wrong with me...................aaaarrrrggggghhhhh!!!!!
One is due in today.......But I haven't even started it!!!!......I managed to get hold of my tutor who gave me an extra week even though he isn't happy about it!!!!!.....As I am meant to be starting on my ECA....He has warned me not to fall behind as that is the most important part of the course and CAN NOT be submitted a minute late......... I better get myself motivated and going as soon as I can as I really do not want to fail this course.
The other TMA is due in on Monday and I'm having problems with this one....I know what I want to write for the main bit of it but everytime I sit down to do it the words don't come to me.....I am at a loss of what to do right now......I wish that I had started it before my tutor had gone away as I could ask him the questions that I am stuck on....My tutor comes back the day before it is due in so I don't know what to do.......I have asked questions in the conference but I am still at a loss of what to do as my brian doesn't seem to be working right now and nothing is helping me to understand it more......I don't know what to do. I have to send it on Saturday but the thing is...It won't get there on Monday (the day it is due) because it is bank holiday Monday......So I really don't know what to do....I also don't know if I can have it finished by then!!!!!
I know I can probably do enough to just pass (if that) but I want more than that...I really do but my brain isn't working at all and I am really getting frustrated with it......I just wish I knew what was wrong with me...................aaaarrrrggggghhhhh!!!!!
Monday, August 23, 2004
60th Birthday party.
It's my step dad's 60th Birthday soon and my mum has planned a 60th Birthday party for him. He has NEVER had a birthday party so my mum is trying to make it extra special for him.
She has already booked it all. From the venue to the artists that she is having playing to the cake.
Well there is going to be two cakes. One for the party and one for the family only. I am making the family cake. It is a fruit cake and I have been told that I make the best fruit cake ever. I like to do them at least 2 months before they are going to be eat. They cost quite a bit to make...Including icing they cost about £25 to make and everyone loves them and always want more. I normally only make them for Christmas and sometimes as gifts for Christmas and I like to make them in September which is next week. I was making 2 next month anyway but now I am having to make three of them. My step dads birthday is on October the 31st but the party is on the 30th as that is a Saturday. So his cake will be made two months in advance. I didn't mention the fact that over the time I feed the cake with brandy. I personally don't like the cake but everyone else does and they always want more. So that is what I will be doing for the party.
I can't wait to go and I am hoping that James can come down for the party as I don't want to go to the party with anyone other than James. He might not be able to come down and that saddens me because I wanted to see him on my birthday. My birthday is 2 days later and I was hoping to spend it with James and I will be very sad and upset if he can't come down.
She has already booked it all. From the venue to the artists that she is having playing to the cake.
Well there is going to be two cakes. One for the party and one for the family only. I am making the family cake. It is a fruit cake and I have been told that I make the best fruit cake ever. I like to do them at least 2 months before they are going to be eat. They cost quite a bit to make...Including icing they cost about £25 to make and everyone loves them and always want more. I normally only make them for Christmas and sometimes as gifts for Christmas and I like to make them in September which is next week. I was making 2 next month anyway but now I am having to make three of them. My step dads birthday is on October the 31st but the party is on the 30th as that is a Saturday. So his cake will be made two months in advance. I didn't mention the fact that over the time I feed the cake with brandy. I personally don't like the cake but everyone else does and they always want more. So that is what I will be doing for the party.
I can't wait to go and I am hoping that James can come down for the party as I don't want to go to the party with anyone other than James. He might not be able to come down and that saddens me because I wanted to see him on my birthday. My birthday is 2 days later and I was hoping to spend it with James and I will be very sad and upset if he can't come down.
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