It's been a busy couple of weeks for me and I can't see it settling down for a while but I'm liking the fact I'm doing so much and getting more things done.
I can't to a big decision a couple of weeks ago without really even thinking about it before hand...I was just sat here one night and I suddenly decided to move out! WOW I know it's shocking but it's been a long time coming to be honest and I'm more than ready and I don't think there is any better time than now to move out.
About 2 years ago I decided to move out in the summer of 2010 and I didn't think I could move before then but with all that's gone on in the past 9 months (from when I started driving lessons with Mick) and how my confidence has grown a little I think it's helped me so much and rather than going backwards to who I was (and the lack of confidence I had) before Mick came into my life I think now is the time to go. It will do me the world of good and I know I will struggle heaps for a while but pushing myself daily, when I've moved out, will help me heaps and will be good for me in the long run even though I am sure I won't think so.
So I've been looking for somewhere and I've had a look at a couple of places and I can't afford anywhere for a couple of weeks (the deposit and first months rent) but once I have the money I will be gone once I've found a house. The first house I went to see I'd like but it was three bedrooms and I only need two so I don't think I'm going to go for it.
I know I want to live in Mill Hill so it's just waiting for a house there that I like and in the mean time I'm buying everything I need from plates to pans and cooker to a fridge freezer so by the time I've got somewhere I will have everything I need.
Everyone was shocked but it's been coming for a long time and now I have a little more confidence I just can't think of a better time. I will miss my dad, for what I see of him, and I do feel guilty about leaving him because it's been the 2 of us for the past 14 years but I am sick of doing all the housework and cooking and cleaning up after him and it's just time I had my own life and my own space.
I know it will be weird and take a lot of getting use to but I need to do this, I know if I don't do it now I will never do it because my confidence has already gone down in the past month so before I go back to what I was I need to get out.
Maybe by my next blog I will of gone...who knows but watch this space!!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Friday, May 01, 2009
Everybody's Fool
I don't know why I can't seem to keep up with doing blogs, I think it's just me being part lazy and part wanting to spend my time doing other things.
Nothing much is going on to talk about, well not really, and I can't even remember what I talked about last time I did a blog which of course isn't good.
I've done two passplus's now and I don't think I'm getting anything out of them other than spending time with Mick and yeah I love spending time with him but paying to spend time with him just isn't a good idea but I don't want to not see him and go for drives. Because lets face it a lot of my driving lessons weren't needed and were just put in place so we could spend time together. He has a hold over me and he knows it so he knows he could easily take me for a ride and have me doing passplus until I'm 50 haha. I know it won't be that extreme but he is going to pass me and said I don't need to have anymore unless I want to and of course I want to but I think I'd rather spend my money on other things.
Last one he didn't even want to go on the motorway and it was only because I wanted to go on that he let me go on a couple of quiet ones when it's busy ones I want him to take me on!
Anyway I have one in about a months time and it's going to be my last one and I want time on the motorway and I don't mean quiet ones either and he is going to be told, I'm paying him and I want a proper passplus!
I got Green Day tickets this morning :o) I am so happy because I've never seen them live before and have always wanted to see them live so I really can't wait to go and see them. It is going to be amazing. I am seeing them two days before my Birthday in Manchester and I plan on having a great night out in Manchester. Halloween is the night before my birthday so I hope I get invited to a Halloween fancy dress party of something because I think that would be amazing!
It's getting closer and closer now to the Michael Jackson concert in London. July during the second week, I'm going for three days and I am so excited about it. I really can't wait, he is the ultimate performer and I've always wanted to see him live and of course I never thought it would happen but hey it looks like it is going to happen and I will be booking my hotel this weekend and I so can't wait.
I love London so that is going to be amazing, being down there again for three days and I am going to plan everything I want to do and see before I go and hope to get it all in. The concert is on the second days and we are coming home on the first day (in the afternoon) so we basically need to get the majority of the stuff done within the first 24 hours of being there. It is great and I love the underground, it rocks!!
I am going to Scotland three weeks today and am meant to be doing the half marathon but I've not done any walking in 2 weeks so I don't think I will be fit enough to walk a half marathon but I am going to keep on walking and get fitter and fitter so I can start my running by the end of June and that's not that far off come to think of it.
Anyway I need to go and get busy, I have some work to do today and I am putting some CDs onto my iTunes.
Nothing much is going on to talk about, well not really, and I can't even remember what I talked about last time I did a blog which of course isn't good.
I've done two passplus's now and I don't think I'm getting anything out of them other than spending time with Mick and yeah I love spending time with him but paying to spend time with him just isn't a good idea but I don't want to not see him and go for drives. Because lets face it a lot of my driving lessons weren't needed and were just put in place so we could spend time together. He has a hold over me and he knows it so he knows he could easily take me for a ride and have me doing passplus until I'm 50 haha. I know it won't be that extreme but he is going to pass me and said I don't need to have anymore unless I want to and of course I want to but I think I'd rather spend my money on other things.
Last one he didn't even want to go on the motorway and it was only because I wanted to go on that he let me go on a couple of quiet ones when it's busy ones I want him to take me on!
Anyway I have one in about a months time and it's going to be my last one and I want time on the motorway and I don't mean quiet ones either and he is going to be told, I'm paying him and I want a proper passplus!
I got Green Day tickets this morning :o) I am so happy because I've never seen them live before and have always wanted to see them live so I really can't wait to go and see them. It is going to be amazing. I am seeing them two days before my Birthday in Manchester and I plan on having a great night out in Manchester. Halloween is the night before my birthday so I hope I get invited to a Halloween fancy dress party of something because I think that would be amazing!
It's getting closer and closer now to the Michael Jackson concert in London. July during the second week, I'm going for three days and I am so excited about it. I really can't wait, he is the ultimate performer and I've always wanted to see him live and of course I never thought it would happen but hey it looks like it is going to happen and I will be booking my hotel this weekend and I so can't wait.
I love London so that is going to be amazing, being down there again for three days and I am going to plan everything I want to do and see before I go and hope to get it all in. The concert is on the second days and we are coming home on the first day (in the afternoon) so we basically need to get the majority of the stuff done within the first 24 hours of being there. It is great and I love the underground, it rocks!!
I am going to Scotland three weeks today and am meant to be doing the half marathon but I've not done any walking in 2 weeks so I don't think I will be fit enough to walk a half marathon but I am going to keep on walking and get fitter and fitter so I can start my running by the end of June and that's not that far off come to think of it.
Anyway I need to go and get busy, I have some work to do today and I am putting some CDs onto my iTunes.
Monday, April 13, 2009
I don't want to miss a thing
Well my dads 70th birthday party was a great success even though I was Miss Stress Head especially the last few days leading up to it. I didn't stop once from 6am on the Thursday right up until 7:30pm on the Friday (the night of the party) and everything stressed me out as I battled with time or the lack of it. The calming thing for me was doing the buffet, everything after that or before that just left me totally stressed out. I didn't even have as much time as I needed or wanted to get ready which annoyed me more than anything because I didn't feel 100% right but it was fine.
The party was fun, I did a quiz about my dad which seemed to get the party going and everyone seemed to really enjoy it and I was shocked that my mum's team won because I didn't expect it, I thought someone else would win.
I was up dancing most of the night which is shocking and totally out of character for me because of my super low confidence but that night I felt more confident than normal and I didn't need many drinks in me to pluck up the confidence and courage to get Sue up on the dance floor. Soon there was about 6 of us from the running club up and dancing and I found myself dancing with people I didn't really know or like because of what I heard about them. Lyndsey and Louise were up every now and then but what shocked me was when they left the dance floor I didn't which I would of normally of done. I think it helped that I was at my dad's party and knew everyone or at least knew who they were. I didn't feel really confident up there but I am glad that I stayed up there for most of the night.
I got Linda to help me with the birthday cakes because we did one for Sue too because it's her birthday on the same day as my dads, she's exactly half his age, and he wanted to make a big thing about it so he did a speech and got her up and I went up and gave her a card and a present and she was shocked. Anyway we got her a cake too so when I did my dad's cake we did Sue's too and she was shocked to find she had gotten a cake too.
It was a wonderful night and everyone kept coming up to me and saying "well done" for organizing everything and I think I got almost as many hugs and kisses as my dad that night off everyone which was nice.
When I got home that night both my dad and Pete was pissed out of their heads but my dad went off to bed whereas Pete ended up throwing up all other the place and falling asleep in the bathroom for 4 hours which wasn't fun for me because I was dying to go in there for hours and when I banged on the door I got no response so I was sat up most of the night waiting to get in the bathroom and only got three hours sleep and had a throbbing headache all the next morning because I couldn't get in the kitchen because Pete was in the middle room on the futon.
When I finally got in there I discovered Pete had left loads of sick everywhere and it seemed like he didn't really want to clean it up and he half cleaned it once my dad put a mop and mop bucket in his hands.
The day we didn't get much done because of how rough Pete felt. I put some money on the grand national and we went out for a carvery in the evening. My dad went to bed early and so did Pete so I went off to sit and chat online on my laptop until the early hours of the morning!
Next day I didn't go downstairs until shortly before we went out to lunch, we went down to the Ribchester arms for a few hours for a meal before we went one way and Pete went the other - home.
When we got back to my house we cleaned up the rest of Pete's sick and gave the house a good clean before I went round to see Louise to chill out for an hour.
Monday saw me getting my nails done again. I'd got them done on Thursday but the glitter was pealing and breaking off so Lyndsey said she'd take it all off and give me another set of nails. My nails looked fab when she finished, as always!
The rest of the week just saw me doing bits and pieces around the house and on Wednesday going up to Pendle Hill with my dad and Louise for a run & eat. It is a running club event and obviously Lou & I weren't going to run so we went for a walk but Lou wanted to go back much sooner than me and knowing woman (or people in general) aren't allowed to go off alone in case of injury/getting lost/being attacked I had no choice but to go back with Louise when she wanted but I could of carried on for another 30 minutes before turning back so I was a little disappointed with her efforts. I did think I was the most unfit person I know but now I'm thinking she might just be more unfit than me which shocks me because I did think she'd be fitter than me because I call myself Miss Super Unfit.
We had Mexican food that night, I had a chicken burrito, once they finally served the food and I got to hand out photo's to people who came to the party.
Thursday was dull and I spent the day trying to get sponsorship for our next club race. Finding people to ask for sponsorship and writing them letters. I hope I get some more, it would be great if I did.
Friday was my dad's birthday and we ended up at The Ribchester Arms again for another lovely meal and my dad was drunk by the middle of the afternoon and was in bed by tea time.
Saturday, Sunday & Monday (Easter Weekend) the weather was amazing here. Stunning blue skies, the sun and a nice cool breeze so I had to make the most of it. On the Saturday I walked for 70 minutes, the Sunday I walked 75 minutes & the Monday I walked 110 minutes. The Sunday was the hardest because I was still feeling pretty tired from Saturday & Sunday as the walks are nearly all uphill on the way home, but I was determined to go further and I wanted to go further still but I knew that I would struggle if I did that so I am glad that I turned round when I did but it was a nice walk and the music I had on stopped it from dragging or feeling as long as it was.
I am walking a half marathon on the 23rd May so I have to walk daily for at least an hour a time. If it's raining I'm still going to have to go out but I will take my umbrella unless the weather is too bad, because of rain, but on days like that I can put on my baseball cap and go down to Witton Park I guess. I can't walk for less than a hour a time unless I don't feel well (even though I've not felt good all weekend) or the weather is super bad). I need to get up to 4 hours walking which is double today but I don't think I will be doing that for at least two weeks because my body isn't used to me doing anything even though I walked everyday for three weeks I stopped three weeks ago so I need to get back into that.
It is leaving me super tired though and I've been going to bed earlier and sleeping longer but I knew that would happen because of how unfit I am but I hope over the next 6 months my fitness will improve and improve. I'm basically going from doing no exercise since well never to wanting to get fit so of course it's going to take it's toll on my body!
The party was fun, I did a quiz about my dad which seemed to get the party going and everyone seemed to really enjoy it and I was shocked that my mum's team won because I didn't expect it, I thought someone else would win.
I was up dancing most of the night which is shocking and totally out of character for me because of my super low confidence but that night I felt more confident than normal and I didn't need many drinks in me to pluck up the confidence and courage to get Sue up on the dance floor. Soon there was about 6 of us from the running club up and dancing and I found myself dancing with people I didn't really know or like because of what I heard about them. Lyndsey and Louise were up every now and then but what shocked me was when they left the dance floor I didn't which I would of normally of done. I think it helped that I was at my dad's party and knew everyone or at least knew who they were. I didn't feel really confident up there but I am glad that I stayed up there for most of the night.
I got Linda to help me with the birthday cakes because we did one for Sue too because it's her birthday on the same day as my dads, she's exactly half his age, and he wanted to make a big thing about it so he did a speech and got her up and I went up and gave her a card and a present and she was shocked. Anyway we got her a cake too so when I did my dad's cake we did Sue's too and she was shocked to find she had gotten a cake too.
It was a wonderful night and everyone kept coming up to me and saying "well done" for organizing everything and I think I got almost as many hugs and kisses as my dad that night off everyone which was nice.
When I got home that night both my dad and Pete was pissed out of their heads but my dad went off to bed whereas Pete ended up throwing up all other the place and falling asleep in the bathroom for 4 hours which wasn't fun for me because I was dying to go in there for hours and when I banged on the door I got no response so I was sat up most of the night waiting to get in the bathroom and only got three hours sleep and had a throbbing headache all the next morning because I couldn't get in the kitchen because Pete was in the middle room on the futon.
When I finally got in there I discovered Pete had left loads of sick everywhere and it seemed like he didn't really want to clean it up and he half cleaned it once my dad put a mop and mop bucket in his hands.
The day we didn't get much done because of how rough Pete felt. I put some money on the grand national and we went out for a carvery in the evening. My dad went to bed early and so did Pete so I went off to sit and chat online on my laptop until the early hours of the morning!
Next day I didn't go downstairs until shortly before we went out to lunch, we went down to the Ribchester arms for a few hours for a meal before we went one way and Pete went the other - home.
When we got back to my house we cleaned up the rest of Pete's sick and gave the house a good clean before I went round to see Louise to chill out for an hour.
Monday saw me getting my nails done again. I'd got them done on Thursday but the glitter was pealing and breaking off so Lyndsey said she'd take it all off and give me another set of nails. My nails looked fab when she finished, as always!
The rest of the week just saw me doing bits and pieces around the house and on Wednesday going up to Pendle Hill with my dad and Louise for a run & eat. It is a running club event and obviously Lou & I weren't going to run so we went for a walk but Lou wanted to go back much sooner than me and knowing woman (or people in general) aren't allowed to go off alone in case of injury/getting lost/being attacked I had no choice but to go back with Louise when she wanted but I could of carried on for another 30 minutes before turning back so I was a little disappointed with her efforts. I did think I was the most unfit person I know but now I'm thinking she might just be more unfit than me which shocks me because I did think she'd be fitter than me because I call myself Miss Super Unfit.
We had Mexican food that night, I had a chicken burrito, once they finally served the food and I got to hand out photo's to people who came to the party.
Thursday was dull and I spent the day trying to get sponsorship for our next club race. Finding people to ask for sponsorship and writing them letters. I hope I get some more, it would be great if I did.
Friday was my dad's birthday and we ended up at The Ribchester Arms again for another lovely meal and my dad was drunk by the middle of the afternoon and was in bed by tea time.
Saturday, Sunday & Monday (Easter Weekend) the weather was amazing here. Stunning blue skies, the sun and a nice cool breeze so I had to make the most of it. On the Saturday I walked for 70 minutes, the Sunday I walked 75 minutes & the Monday I walked 110 minutes. The Sunday was the hardest because I was still feeling pretty tired from Saturday & Sunday as the walks are nearly all uphill on the way home, but I was determined to go further and I wanted to go further still but I knew that I would struggle if I did that so I am glad that I turned round when I did but it was a nice walk and the music I had on stopped it from dragging or feeling as long as it was.
I am walking a half marathon on the 23rd May so I have to walk daily for at least an hour a time. If it's raining I'm still going to have to go out but I will take my umbrella unless the weather is too bad, because of rain, but on days like that I can put on my baseball cap and go down to Witton Park I guess. I can't walk for less than a hour a time unless I don't feel well (even though I've not felt good all weekend) or the weather is super bad). I need to get up to 4 hours walking which is double today but I don't think I will be doing that for at least two weeks because my body isn't used to me doing anything even though I walked everyday for three weeks I stopped three weeks ago so I need to get back into that.
It is leaving me super tired though and I've been going to bed earlier and sleeping longer but I knew that would happen because of how unfit I am but I hope over the next 6 months my fitness will improve and improve. I'm basically going from doing no exercise since well never to wanting to get fit so of course it's going to take it's toll on my body!
Monday, April 06, 2009
We Close Our Eyes
Another three weeks has passed since my last blog but I guess that's better than 2 months or something like that.
I forgot to say in my last one that I managed to get Michael Jackson tickets in the presale for the second week of the series of shows he's doing at the O2 in London. I'm looking forward to it and it's going to be my first concert of the year by the looks of things. I love London too so I can't wait to go to London for at least three days (I don't know how long I'm going for yet!). So it should be a really good time.
I've mainly been organizing my dads 70th birthday party, which was Friday 3rd April, and the last week of that was mad and manic for me especially in the last two days. I basically didn't stop from 6am on the Thursday morning right up until 7:30pm on the night of the party. I obviously slept between Thursday and Friday but not for long. It was a nightmare and I was on duty a lot at the party especially at the end of the night but I didn't drink much and I didn't want to anyway. I did have a little help from Lou, Madeline (who let me us her kitchen) and Lyndsey (who helped me put up banners n pictures at the venue) ... oh and Pete who printed the pics, blew up a few balloons and then did some stuff before the party.
I had an amazing time at the party. I even shocked myself with all that I got up to because I don't normally socialize because of my lack of confidence, I tend to keep myself to myself but I knew everyone there and it helped me so much. I had such a wonderful time and was up most of the night dancing with people from the running club (mainly Sue, Linda & Lesley). I even got up on my own and kept going back and dancing on my own which I'd never of done as little as a month ago so it just goes to show how much my confidence has grown over the last month.
I did a quiz about my dad too which seemed to get the whole thing going because before I did the quiz no one was interacting as much and were all stood around but as soon as I got everyone sat down for the quiz things started to happen. Shockingly my mum won the quiz and I didn't think she would, she only won by 2 points but I didn't think she'd know the answers to a lot of them but I think she did guess on some of them!
There was too much food and a lot of it got binned at the end of the night but it was much better than there being too much. I didn't find them at all helpful at the venue either and all I heard was them moaning and they let members in who dived into the buffet as soon as it was open and even took part in the quiz (the cheeky so n so's). So I won't be using that venue again because I have a list of complaints about the place and their attitudes!
But a good night was had by all and everyone kept coming up to me and telling me I'd done a great job, I got a lot of kisses and hugs that night...almost as many as my dad and it wasn't even my birthday so I did well.
My dad got a shed loads of cards and it's not even his birthday until Friday either! He got some nice presents too and there are more to come because I've got him about another 5 presents yet but I did give him one on the night which was a designer watch!
Not been up to too much else other than starting passplus and getting the house sorted and doing some work. I've been getting out a bit more too now I can drive alone but getting the car can be a total nightmare to be honest and I can't wait to get my own but it's probably going to be around August time when that happens but it's April now so I guess it's not that far off. I won't be getting one on credit so I have to save the cash for it. But it will be nice knowing I bought it rather than it being bought for me by my dad because I will appreciate it heaps more knowing I worked hard to buy it.
Anyway this is it for now!
I forgot to say in my last one that I managed to get Michael Jackson tickets in the presale for the second week of the series of shows he's doing at the O2 in London. I'm looking forward to it and it's going to be my first concert of the year by the looks of things. I love London too so I can't wait to go to London for at least three days (I don't know how long I'm going for yet!). So it should be a really good time.
I've mainly been organizing my dads 70th birthday party, which was Friday 3rd April, and the last week of that was mad and manic for me especially in the last two days. I basically didn't stop from 6am on the Thursday morning right up until 7:30pm on the night of the party. I obviously slept between Thursday and Friday but not for long. It was a nightmare and I was on duty a lot at the party especially at the end of the night but I didn't drink much and I didn't want to anyway. I did have a little help from Lou, Madeline (who let me us her kitchen) and Lyndsey (who helped me put up banners n pictures at the venue) ... oh and Pete who printed the pics, blew up a few balloons and then did some stuff before the party.
I had an amazing time at the party. I even shocked myself with all that I got up to because I don't normally socialize because of my lack of confidence, I tend to keep myself to myself but I knew everyone there and it helped me so much. I had such a wonderful time and was up most of the night dancing with people from the running club (mainly Sue, Linda & Lesley). I even got up on my own and kept going back and dancing on my own which I'd never of done as little as a month ago so it just goes to show how much my confidence has grown over the last month.
I did a quiz about my dad too which seemed to get the whole thing going because before I did the quiz no one was interacting as much and were all stood around but as soon as I got everyone sat down for the quiz things started to happen. Shockingly my mum won the quiz and I didn't think she would, she only won by 2 points but I didn't think she'd know the answers to a lot of them but I think she did guess on some of them!
There was too much food and a lot of it got binned at the end of the night but it was much better than there being too much. I didn't find them at all helpful at the venue either and all I heard was them moaning and they let members in who dived into the buffet as soon as it was open and even took part in the quiz (the cheeky so n so's). So I won't be using that venue again because I have a list of complaints about the place and their attitudes!
But a good night was had by all and everyone kept coming up to me and telling me I'd done a great job, I got a lot of kisses and hugs that night...almost as many as my dad and it wasn't even my birthday so I did well.
My dad got a shed loads of cards and it's not even his birthday until Friday either! He got some nice presents too and there are more to come because I've got him about another 5 presents yet but I did give him one on the night which was a designer watch!
Not been up to too much else other than starting passplus and getting the house sorted and doing some work. I've been getting out a bit more too now I can drive alone but getting the car can be a total nightmare to be honest and I can't wait to get my own but it's probably going to be around August time when that happens but it's April now so I guess it's not that far off. I won't be getting one on credit so I have to save the cash for it. But it will be nice knowing I bought it rather than it being bought for me by my dad because I will appreciate it heaps more knowing I worked hard to buy it.
Anyway this is it for now!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
You Spin My Head Right Round
The news of the week is that I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!! How amazing is that? I got one minor but that was for a very stupid reason to do with my nerves.
I was so amazed and happy to find out I'd passed because of course I had thought the worst all the way through the test because it is so nerve wreaking. I am glad I did it though because I almost cancelled it after a run in with my driving instructor. I would of called him a good close friend at one time but right now I don't know what to think of him or about him after he severly upset me days before my driving test. I hope to put it all in the past but I will see how things go, all I know now is that things can never be the same between us.
So now I am legal to drive alone and I made the most of it. I drove 100 miles over the weekend and I've not driven since Monday but I plan on doing some driving tomorrow even if it's just driving my dad to and from work so that I can have the car for a few hours. It is wonderful to have the freedom although I did want the car tonight and couldn't have it because my dad wanted it. I was saving for a car but spent most of my savings so now I am going to start saving again and get one in the summer. I know what I want, I want a corsa.
I am now talking again to someone I went to primary school with. It is so surreal. I can't get over it because I've not seen this person in 14 years and it was me falling out with my driving instructor that got us talking again. She came round for over two hours before my driving test and I saw her a couple of days ago because she came round and we took our dogs for a walk in Witton Park and are probably going to do the same tomorrow too. She is really nice and reminds me or myself so much. So I hope to spend more time with her although she doesn't have as much spare time as I've got because she is married with three children.
I am trying to think of my own business ideas because I'd love my own little business but I don't have a clue doing what though. I'm trying to think of ideas of something free or cheap to set up but I am still really stumped for ideas so I hope something comes to me soon.
I am also hoping to find a job where I work one day a week or a couple of half days, it will help me with my confidence and it will also give me a little cash each week which I need.
Well that's it for now but I hope to be back on soon.
I was so amazed and happy to find out I'd passed because of course I had thought the worst all the way through the test because it is so nerve wreaking. I am glad I did it though because I almost cancelled it after a run in with my driving instructor. I would of called him a good close friend at one time but right now I don't know what to think of him or about him after he severly upset me days before my driving test. I hope to put it all in the past but I will see how things go, all I know now is that things can never be the same between us.
So now I am legal to drive alone and I made the most of it. I drove 100 miles over the weekend and I've not driven since Monday but I plan on doing some driving tomorrow even if it's just driving my dad to and from work so that I can have the car for a few hours. It is wonderful to have the freedom although I did want the car tonight and couldn't have it because my dad wanted it. I was saving for a car but spent most of my savings so now I am going to start saving again and get one in the summer. I know what I want, I want a corsa.
I am now talking again to someone I went to primary school with. It is so surreal. I can't get over it because I've not seen this person in 14 years and it was me falling out with my driving instructor that got us talking again. She came round for over two hours before my driving test and I saw her a couple of days ago because she came round and we took our dogs for a walk in Witton Park and are probably going to do the same tomorrow too. She is really nice and reminds me or myself so much. So I hope to spend more time with her although she doesn't have as much spare time as I've got because she is married with three children.
I am trying to think of my own business ideas because I'd love my own little business but I don't have a clue doing what though. I'm trying to think of ideas of something free or cheap to set up but I am still really stumped for ideas so I hope something comes to me soon.
I am also hoping to find a job where I work one day a week or a couple of half days, it will help me with my confidence and it will also give me a little cash each week which I need.
Well that's it for now but I hope to be back on soon.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Please Update Me!!
It would seem that I am getting bad at trying to keep up with my blog, I don't know what it going on but it's looking like I'm not going to be able to keep a weekly blog on here anymore because I just simply forget to come on here and do one so it's going to be a case of doing one as and when I remember.
Well a lot has been going on since my last blog, lots of driving lessons, falling out with my driving instructor because of his lies, shopping, working hard, decorating and so much other stuff and I don't know how I'm going to fit it all in, in the short time I planned on spending on this blog.
Firstly, let me start with my driving. Well it's really good and I'm loving it to be honest with you, I love getting behind the wheel and driving and my driving test is on Friday and I'm not dreading it but I am dreading seeing my driving instructor because we fell out yesterday because of somethings he said to me and he really hurt and upset and annoyed me. He left me so annoyed that I didn't know what to do with myself and had to go out for a long walk to help me calm down. I am a lot calmer today but I'm still very annoyed and upset about what went on and what was said and well I really don't want to see him on Friday...it's the last thing I want but it's my test so it looks like I've got to try and rise above it and act like an adult...it's funny because I was the only one acting like an adult on Monday.
So yeah it's on Friday and I was trying to keep that to myself but after what happened I ended up telling everyone that my test is on Friday and that I don't want to do it. My friend Emily talked me into doing it, I think if it wasn't for her I would of cancelled it. I just can't stand the thought of being in the car with him for 90 minutes, I'd rather pluck all my body hair one by one than sit with him again but after Friday I never have to see him again and that hurts but also it's good because the way he was with me yesterday is something that I don't need nor want in my life and it looks like I got him all wrong. He said his hands are clean but if they were any dirtier they'd be pitch black.
I started stripping the paper in the middle room a couple of weeks ago and it's been a nightmare to say the least. The bottom half came off easily but then the top half was a pain and it took days and days of steaming it to get it all done. I left maybe a quarter of it for my dad because I was just so sick of doing it and needed it out of the way. So now we are left with a very messy room that needs papering and painting and that is going to be done next week because all the contents of the front room are in there at the moment whilst we wait for a new carpet to be put down in the front room.
I've picked the colours and I've decided to get some wooden blinds for the middle room which of course means a trip to Ikea and I love going there. I need another DVD rack so it's all good and I love the fact it's open at midnight and yes I've been there at midnight before now.
My bedroom is almost 100% finished! I know it's been going on for months and months now and it was driving me round the bend so one day last week I went in there with my paint and I finished all the main parts and now there is just areas that need doing with the brush and my curtains need putting back up and well the ceiling does need doing but that is going to wait because I just want to enjoy the walls and woodwork being finished after all this time.
I also finished the bathroom, I just painted the doors and it looks amazing now, much better than it did before and I think once we get a new blinde up in there it will look heaps better so that's all that needs to be bought for it.
I bought myself a new laptop. I had one for about 5/6 months and barely used it because we couldn't get the wireless router working and well I mainly wanted it for when I was in my bedroom or when I was sat on the computer at night and I ended up getting rid of it in the end because no matter what we tried it wouldn't work.
But then for months I was wishing I still had one because I got sick of sitting at my desk for long hours typing away online to friends after spending some of the day working at the computer. It got dull and boring as well as causing a lot of pain in my wrists and neck/back.
I felt so guilty about spending so much on myself, I am so used to spending my money on everyone else that spending that sort of money on myself was something I don't do and I had to go away for a few hours and give it some serious thought and even as I was walking out the shop with the laptop I was still feeling so guilty about spending so much on myself. I love the laptop, I am always on it during the evening...sometimes I will go on there instead of my desktop but a lot of the time I will go on my desktop until a certain time and then swap to the laptop. But the last week I've mainly been starting on my laptop and finishing on my laptop.
Oh yeah we are getting a new carpet because my dad burnt the last one and if it wasn't for me the whole house would of gone up in flames. He put the paint stripper heat gun on top of the shredder and some how it fell off and turned itself on and started a fire which I smelt and put out. He said he couldn't smell a thing but it was so strong that I had to open all the windows and the smell took forever to go. I don't think he realises just how serious the situation was and just says it was an accident but I was seconds from getting into the shower so I am glad I didn't go now because he wouldn't of smelt it and the room would of been on fire before he realised anything was wrong.
So now I've had to spend hours emptying this room, all the books ans folders and everything else, so I can have a new carpet put down and I don't appreciate having to be so put out by the hours I'm having to spend moving things around and I've told him to be more careful in future because it just isn't funny.
Well a lot has been going on since my last blog, lots of driving lessons, falling out with my driving instructor because of his lies, shopping, working hard, decorating and so much other stuff and I don't know how I'm going to fit it all in, in the short time I planned on spending on this blog.
Firstly, let me start with my driving. Well it's really good and I'm loving it to be honest with you, I love getting behind the wheel and driving and my driving test is on Friday and I'm not dreading it but I am dreading seeing my driving instructor because we fell out yesterday because of somethings he said to me and he really hurt and upset and annoyed me. He left me so annoyed that I didn't know what to do with myself and had to go out for a long walk to help me calm down. I am a lot calmer today but I'm still very annoyed and upset about what went on and what was said and well I really don't want to see him on Friday...it's the last thing I want but it's my test so it looks like I've got to try and rise above it and act like an adult...it's funny because I was the only one acting like an adult on Monday.
So yeah it's on Friday and I was trying to keep that to myself but after what happened I ended up telling everyone that my test is on Friday and that I don't want to do it. My friend Emily talked me into doing it, I think if it wasn't for her I would of cancelled it. I just can't stand the thought of being in the car with him for 90 minutes, I'd rather pluck all my body hair one by one than sit with him again but after Friday I never have to see him again and that hurts but also it's good because the way he was with me yesterday is something that I don't need nor want in my life and it looks like I got him all wrong. He said his hands are clean but if they were any dirtier they'd be pitch black.
I started stripping the paper in the middle room a couple of weeks ago and it's been a nightmare to say the least. The bottom half came off easily but then the top half was a pain and it took days and days of steaming it to get it all done. I left maybe a quarter of it for my dad because I was just so sick of doing it and needed it out of the way. So now we are left with a very messy room that needs papering and painting and that is going to be done next week because all the contents of the front room are in there at the moment whilst we wait for a new carpet to be put down in the front room.
I've picked the colours and I've decided to get some wooden blinds for the middle room which of course means a trip to Ikea and I love going there. I need another DVD rack so it's all good and I love the fact it's open at midnight and yes I've been there at midnight before now.
My bedroom is almost 100% finished! I know it's been going on for months and months now and it was driving me round the bend so one day last week I went in there with my paint and I finished all the main parts and now there is just areas that need doing with the brush and my curtains need putting back up and well the ceiling does need doing but that is going to wait because I just want to enjoy the walls and woodwork being finished after all this time.
I also finished the bathroom, I just painted the doors and it looks amazing now, much better than it did before and I think once we get a new blinde up in there it will look heaps better so that's all that needs to be bought for it.
I bought myself a new laptop. I had one for about 5/6 months and barely used it because we couldn't get the wireless router working and well I mainly wanted it for when I was in my bedroom or when I was sat on the computer at night and I ended up getting rid of it in the end because no matter what we tried it wouldn't work.
But then for months I was wishing I still had one because I got sick of sitting at my desk for long hours typing away online to friends after spending some of the day working at the computer. It got dull and boring as well as causing a lot of pain in my wrists and neck/back.
I felt so guilty about spending so much on myself, I am so used to spending my money on everyone else that spending that sort of money on myself was something I don't do and I had to go away for a few hours and give it some serious thought and even as I was walking out the shop with the laptop I was still feeling so guilty about spending so much on myself. I love the laptop, I am always on it during the evening...sometimes I will go on there instead of my desktop but a lot of the time I will go on my desktop until a certain time and then swap to the laptop. But the last week I've mainly been starting on my laptop and finishing on my laptop.
Oh yeah we are getting a new carpet because my dad burnt the last one and if it wasn't for me the whole house would of gone up in flames. He put the paint stripper heat gun on top of the shredder and some how it fell off and turned itself on and started a fire which I smelt and put out. He said he couldn't smell a thing but it was so strong that I had to open all the windows and the smell took forever to go. I don't think he realises just how serious the situation was and just says it was an accident but I was seconds from getting into the shower so I am glad I didn't go now because he wouldn't of smelt it and the room would of been on fire before he realised anything was wrong.
So now I've had to spend hours emptying this room, all the books ans folders and everything else, so I can have a new carpet put down and I don't appreciate having to be so put out by the hours I'm having to spend moving things around and I've told him to be more careful in future because it just isn't funny.
Monday, January 19, 2009
So here it goes...
OK so I was meant to do a Christmas blog and as of yet I've not got round to it but I am sure I will do, or I hope I will find time to get it sorted and out of the way.
Not too much going on here for me other than work, it's tax return month so there is lots of account work and tax returns to get in before the 31st so I've been a lot busier than normal and it's good to have things to do.
So my days have been mainly filled with that and just trying to keep myself busy or more active than I've been before because it's about time that I spent more time doing things instead of sitting around wasting my life away which is basically what I was doing. So it's hard to get out of a bad habit of a lifetime but the last week or so I am pleased to say that I have been a lot more active and motivated than normal but of course there are days and times when I sit and waste time. I don't want to push myself so I'm doing things all the time but there are times when I can be doing things and not wasting my time sat at the computer or in front of the TV.
I am in the middle of trying to organize a surprise 70th birthday party for my dad and I'm getting no help from my brothers but that doesn't surprise me one little bit so it's just being left to me to sort and pay for. They wouldn't of even thought of doing one, it's the way they are but at least one of us turned out to be very thoughtful and giving.
It is ages away but it isn't really, it's about 10 weeks time and that time will fly by so I am booking somewhere in the next week and then everything else is much easier like sorting out the entertainment and food etc...just need to get the money together now and I'm working on that.
So work and party planning is what is going on in my life at the moment. Pretty doll but it's keeping me busy. I am also trying to get fitter and get out more but this cold weather is spoiling that for me at the moment and with it being so cold I'm not wanting to go out for walks but I'm hoping for the weather to get better in the next 3-4 weeks and then as long as it's not raining I should be walking daily which of course is what I want....it will help me build up my fitness levels and maybe help me to lose a little weight too.
So that's basically all really, for now anyway.
Not too much going on here for me other than work, it's tax return month so there is lots of account work and tax returns to get in before the 31st so I've been a lot busier than normal and it's good to have things to do.
So my days have been mainly filled with that and just trying to keep myself busy or more active than I've been before because it's about time that I spent more time doing things instead of sitting around wasting my life away which is basically what I was doing. So it's hard to get out of a bad habit of a lifetime but the last week or so I am pleased to say that I have been a lot more active and motivated than normal but of course there are days and times when I sit and waste time. I don't want to push myself so I'm doing things all the time but there are times when I can be doing things and not wasting my time sat at the computer or in front of the TV.
I am in the middle of trying to organize a surprise 70th birthday party for my dad and I'm getting no help from my brothers but that doesn't surprise me one little bit so it's just being left to me to sort and pay for. They wouldn't of even thought of doing one, it's the way they are but at least one of us turned out to be very thoughtful and giving.
It is ages away but it isn't really, it's about 10 weeks time and that time will fly by so I am booking somewhere in the next week and then everything else is much easier like sorting out the entertainment and food etc...just need to get the money together now and I'm working on that.
So work and party planning is what is going on in my life at the moment. Pretty doll but it's keeping me busy. I am also trying to get fitter and get out more but this cold weather is spoiling that for me at the moment and with it being so cold I'm not wanting to go out for walks but I'm hoping for the weather to get better in the next 3-4 weeks and then as long as it's not raining I should be walking daily which of course is what I want....it will help me build up my fitness levels and maybe help me to lose a little weight too.
So that's basically all really, for now anyway.
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